Hello

I am a regular man not transgender or experiencing anything to do with body integrity disorder, I just pretty much have a pretty severe castration fetish which causes me discomfort, I have an extremely high sex drive which complicates things more because when I become aroused I experience intense urges to have my balls cut off and to be honest it feels like a curse.. I am actually actively seeking options for castration just to get this monkey off my back

do any of you struggle with this?

You are hardly alone. One member in the past said that he had done severe things to his plumbing when he got horny. His solution was to jack off before it got to that point. You will find others with a similar story.

I had the same desire. I couldn't handle this on my own.

But the circumstances in my life turned out to be such that they helped me ...

In fact, as they say, the best way to overcome temptation is to succumb to it .

Hello

mikefromwisconsin (imported) wrote: Thu Nov 25, 2021 11:13 pm I am a regular man not transgender or experiencing anything to do with body integrity disorder, I just pretty much have a pretty severe castration fetish which causes me discomfort, I have an extremely high sex drive which complicates things more because when I become aroused I experience intense urges to have my balls cut off and to be honest it feels like a curse.. I am actually actively seeking options for castration just to get this monkey off my back

do any of you struggle with this?

The position I am in is very probably not the same as yours, but unpicking it may help.

I have had testicular torsions since the age of 9, so I went through puberty with this awareness of the threat of intolerable pain hanging over me at any moment. I have also had a castration fetish for as long as I can remember.

Now, from what I can gather from really interrogating how I feel inside of the fantasy of castration, it has to do with feelings of resolution, reconciling reality with itself, relief from pain/fear, and so on. I know correlation does not imply causation, but in my case I think I have come to carve castration into the rock of my kinks and fetishes because essentially I am adapting to and bargaining with my absolute physical reality.

I also have a fetish taste for penectomy/size theft/penis shrinking stuff. However, with that, it arouses adrenaline, fear responses, and overall a sort of sense that it is a fantasy intended (within me) to approach something scary (to me). It is scary because I do not want to go down that road in real life. I do want castration -- I am seeking this from doctors right now to deal with a worsening in my torsions.

Comparing the two fantasies together, they are very different. The castration one is about affirmation, acceptance and commitment to reality, and erotica about it tends to make me feel calm, seen, understood, welcome and playful, because someone out there does not regard it as fatally devaluing or stigmatising. The penectomy one is all about confronting some higher level of fear and suffering* or degradation* (*my internal assumptions) so that I might then return from that training equipped to find the threats that I need to face in my life less enormous or difficult.

The way you are describing your fantasies feels like that second kind -- a trial of emotional strength possibly as a sort of training of your mind against some other lesser threat or expectation in your life. For this reason, I would urge caution in following its daredevil taunting towards something the I-don't-want-this-ness of which is likely where all its power comes from. Nevertheless, facing and fighting metaphorical dragons within fantasy is extremely healthy, so do not think there is anything unusual or disordered in having edgeplay fantasies in a sexual context.

One of the interesting effects of going on a forum like this with fantasies is that meeting the great people who are living with something you hold-up in this way as beyond a wall of courage can normalise the thing, and make the fantasy less "glorious". I have found that making friends with nullo guys has reduced the adrenaline in my penis-related daydreams much less high... but it is similar to when you grow up and find the things that pop out in a ghost train ride don't give you as much of a start as they once did. If the point of a particular fantasy is that you are looking beyond one of your boundaries, however, remember that just because the pane of glass has become less dim, you'll still get cut if you smash through it. For me, castration is the near side of the glass; it does not sound like it may be for you.

Anyway, I wish you the blessing and the curse of self-knowledge and self-acceptance. The considered life is less exciting, but it is also safer.

It took me years to come to this conclusion, but for me it is all about the fantasy. Sure, I would love to have my dick cut off, but then the fantasy ends. Once I made the mental note 'this is fantasy' the desire diminished and no longer a monkey on my back. Maybe one day I will, but highly doubtful. Maybe that - acknowledging castration fetish as fantasy, just a fetish - will help?

same here mikefromwisconsin

It's far from abnormal. I am masculine also, workout, high level of T and yet......this obsessive fantasy. Orgasm has always relieved the desire before I went to far but i often wonder if actual castration is the solution. I've considerdd the chemical trial run approach but there are so many side effects that it has always stopped me from doing it.

Alternatively:

Take up an extreme sport and maybe your dream will come true "automatically" .

And no one will condemn you, on the contrary, many will even regret you!

i had contacts set up to get it done but lost them when the ************ site went down, I am actively looking.

palocked (imported) wrote: Fri Dec 03, 2021 6:47 am same here mikefromwisconsin

It's far from abnormal. I am masculine also, workout, high level of T and yet......this obsessive fantasy. Orgasm has always relieved the desire before I went to far but i often wonder if actual castration is the solution. I've considerdd the chemical trial run approach but there are so many side effects that it has always stopped me from doing it.

It's ok if you are castrated and still have high t level,you don't have to choose the chemical castration

After surgical castration the adrenal glands continue to develop a small amount of testosterone.

And it is absolutely necessary!

I always tried not to break normal work of my organism, taking any hormonal drugs.

Only sometimes incidentally - testosterone, however maintaining production of own testosterone.