Nonads_85 is back
Posted: Wed Aug 11, 2021 1:01 pm
I joined this forum over 5 years ago, and made a few posts over the first few weeks. Since then, I drifted away. I have visited occasionally, if for no other reason than to keep my registration from lapsing, but haven't spent any significant amount of time reading the forum posts, and I haven't made any of my own posts in a very long time.
Lately, I've been thinking about emasculation again, and I hope to be a bit more active here.
When I first joined, I don't think I properly described myself. So, I'll do that now.
Though I'm male, I've never, at any point in my life, felt the least bit masculine. I've always experienced a certain degree of dysphoria, though not to the extent that it afflicts many transgender people. It hasn't been debilitating, but it's still been enough that for as long as I can remember, I've had this desire for a smooth crotch. The term "non-binary" didn't exist back then, and I didn't seem to fit into the everything-is-black-or-white pigeonholes that they had, thus adding to my confusion. Of course, times have changed, and I now consider myself to be trans-androgynous. My ideal body would be one that has no characteristics specific to either male or female. In other words, no genitals, no boobs, and no body hair.
Fortunately, I'm lucky that I've never had a particularly masculine body. There were a few times back when I had very long hair, wearing androgynous clothing, I'd occasionally be mistaken for a female.
Contrary to what my username implies, my 'nads are still there. I regret that I picked a username that is misleading (for now anyway). Although they're not gone yet, the family jewels are smaller than they used to be, thanks to some anti-androgen use. But, so far, I haven't had the balls to get rid of the balls completely.
I'm aware that this forum has, over the years, had "tourist" members who only came here to "stare at the freaks" as it were. So, I just want to say that I'm not one of them, even if I haven't yet worked up the courage to take the big step.
I'll add finally, that in real life I'm extremely shy, and this is probably the only reason why I've been hesitating for so long to see either a doctor or a therapist. The thought of having to say to them, in person, what I've just said here, is terrifying.
Lately, I've been thinking about emasculation again, and I hope to be a bit more active here.
When I first joined, I don't think I properly described myself. So, I'll do that now.
Though I'm male, I've never, at any point in my life, felt the least bit masculine. I've always experienced a certain degree of dysphoria, though not to the extent that it afflicts many transgender people. It hasn't been debilitating, but it's still been enough that for as long as I can remember, I've had this desire for a smooth crotch. The term "non-binary" didn't exist back then, and I didn't seem to fit into the everything-is-black-or-white pigeonholes that they had, thus adding to my confusion. Of course, times have changed, and I now consider myself to be trans-androgynous. My ideal body would be one that has no characteristics specific to either male or female. In other words, no genitals, no boobs, and no body hair.
Fortunately, I'm lucky that I've never had a particularly masculine body. There were a few times back when I had very long hair, wearing androgynous clothing, I'd occasionally be mistaken for a female.
Contrary to what my username implies, my 'nads are still there. I regret that I picked a username that is misleading (for now anyway). Although they're not gone yet, the family jewels are smaller than they used to be, thanks to some anti-androgen use. But, so far, I haven't had the balls to get rid of the balls completely.
I'm aware that this forum has, over the years, had "tourist" members who only came here to "stare at the freaks" as it were. So, I just want to say that I'm not one of them, even if I haven't yet worked up the courage to take the big step.
I'll add finally, that in real life I'm extremely shy, and this is probably the only reason why I've been hesitating for so long to see either a doctor or a therapist. The thought of having to say to them, in person, what I've just said here, is terrifying.
