The more time passes, the more I wonder about my real motivation.

On the one hand, I want to be castrated with all the aspects that this implies, sterility, impotence, emasculation, no substitution treatment, to fully live the life of an eunuch.

On the other hand, I tell myself that maybe I would like to have orgasms, erections, ejaculations even without sperm.

Anyway, I continue my journey towards castration, which seems to be stronger than reason.

Whatever my situation afterwards, I feel capable of taking charge.

I would like to know if you too, before your castration, you were in the midst of this dilem, am I looking for the two states, castrated impotent or castrated with a sex life.

Or maybe you made a choice and empowered yourself to achieve your goal.

The absence of sperm is for me an important thing, and a deep wish.

I am already infertile, but I have a few sperm not enough to be fertile, and they are not viable anyway.

I'm waiting to be able to do a spermogram, where the result will be total absence of sperm, it is for me another way of living my castration, and is it important to you?

Gelded (imported) wrote: Mon Jun 14, 2021 5:31 pm The more time passes, the more I wonder about my real motivation.

On the one hand, I want to be castrated with all the aspects that this implies, sterility, impotence, emasculation, no substitution treatment, to fully live the life of an eunuch.

On the other hand, I tell myself that maybe I would like to have orgasms, erections, ejaculations even without sperm.

Anyway, I continue my journey towards castration, which seems to be stronger than reason.

Whatever my situation afterwards, I feel capable of taking charge.

I would like to know if you too, before your castration, you were in the midst of this dilem, am I looking for the two states, castrated impotent or castrated with a sex life.

Or maybe you made a choice and empowered yourself to achieve your goal.

The absence of sperm is for me an important thing, and a deep wish.

I am already infertile, but I have a few sperm not enough to be fertile, and they are not viable anyway.

I'm waiting to be able to do a spermogram, where the result will be total absence of sperm, it is for me another way of living my castration, and is it important to you?

I have sufficient experience of life of the eunuch. It seems to me you you dramatize this problem in psychological aspect a little. From purely medical point of view you will be prompted by doctors that should be done not to do much harm to your health.

I think that mental tug of war is very common in men who crave castration. I think you are very normal in your thinking. And most men do think of being non sexual as an unknown and with true fear since sex is so important and pleasurable to most men. Being sperm free is also a common desire for males of all ages. As soon as we start shooting real sperm in puberty, we know we can impregnate any fertile female. An awesome power and responsibility at a young age. Fearsome in its consequences for lots of boys, teens, and grown men. And long lasting consequences if you sire babies at any age.

Lots of men know their own castration desires don t make any logical sense if they love sex and being masculine, horny men. But we still crave it, at least in fantasy terms, if not in reality and the obvious consequences. Maybe the finality of a vasectomy ending your infertility by intentional sterility might give you a lot of satisfaction and closure to your infertility. Taking control and actively choosing to get yourself fully sterilized. Lots of men get vasectomies as a step toward their full castrations. Its easier to get castrated if you are used to being sterilized for years before your final castration. Plus no mistakes of your sperm suddenly impregnating any women unintentionally. And see how you enjoy your vasectomy as a mild practice run of your castration surgery. See how your scrotum and vas cords heal up as a preview of castration healing. No reason not to get yourself a vasectomy to get a small preview of getting castrated and sperm trapped in your balls.

cutnbulls2ox (imported) wrote: Tue Jun 15, 2021 8:13 am I think that mental tug of war is very common in men who crave castration. I think you are very normal in your thinking. And most men do think of being non sexual as an unknown and with true fear since sex is so important and pleasurable to most men. Being sperm free is also a common desire for males of all ages. As soon as we start shooting real sperm in puberty, we know we can impregnate any fertile female. An awesome power and responsibility at a young age. Fearsome in its consequences for lots of boys, teens, and grown men. And long lasting consequences if you sire babies at any age.

Lots of men know their own castration desires don t make any logical sense if they love sex and being masculine, horny men. But we still crave it, at least in fantasy terms, if not in reality and the obvious consequences. Maybe the finality of a vasectomy ending your infertility by intentional sterility might give you a lot of satisfaction and closure to your infertility. Taking control and actively choosing to get yourself fully sterilized. Lots of men get vasectomies as a step toward their full castrations. Its easier to get castrated if you are used to being sterilized for years before your final castration. Plus no mistakes of your sperm suddenly impregnating any women unintentionally. And see how you enjoy your vasectomy as a mild practice run of your castration surgery. See how your scrotum and vas cords heal up as a preview of castration healing. No reason not to get yourself a vasectomy to get a small preview of getting castrated and sperm trapped in your balls.

I would come back to answer at length, because I think we have some common thoughts.

However, the vasectomy would be a waste of time, and I prefer to go directly to the castration which seems more successful to me. But I come back to discuss this.

Kindly

cutnbulls2ox (imported) wrote: Tue Jun 15, 2021 8:13 am I think that mental tug of war is very common in men who crave castration. I think you are very normal in your thinking. And most men do think of being non sexual as an unknown and with true fear since sex is so important and pleasurable to most men. Being sperm free is also a common desire for males of all ages. As soon as we start shooting real sperm in puberty, we know we can impregnate any fertile female. An awesome power and responsibility at a young age. Fearsome in its consequences for lots of boys, teens, and grown men. And long lasting consequences if you sire babies at any age.

Lots of men know their own castration desires don t make any logical sense if they love sex and being masculine, horny men. But we still crave it, at least in fantasy terms, if not in reality and the obvious consequences. Maybe the finality of a vasectomy ending your infertility by intentional sterility might give you a lot of satisfaction and closure to your infertility. Taking control and actively choosing to get yourself fully sterilized. Lots of men get vasectomies as a step toward their full castrations. Its easier to get castrated if you are used to being sterilized for years before your final castration. Plus no mistakes of your sperm suddenly impregnating any women unintentionally. And see how you enjoy your vasectomy as a mild practice run of your castration surgery. See how your scrotum and vas cords heal up as a preview of castration healing. No reason not to get yourself a vasectomy to get a small preview of getting castrated and sperm trapped in your balls.

I have gone through different stages and ways of thinking. At the beginning it was yes or no I'm going to be castrated . It took a long time to realize that this was what I really wanted.

Now I am drawn to the real effects of castration, I see in the removal of my testicles, emasculation, no longer being a man, not being able to fertilize, not being able to have an erection:dong:, much less 'ejaculation. I also find sex without acorns very attractive. I'm not attracted to total nullification, but a short cock because it no longer has an acorn and no longer accompanied by testicles represents the image I have of the kind I want to be.

The image of the man who has been stripped of all masculine aspect.

What you told me made me think, you know I'm sterile, I don't know for what reason, but my last spermogram said azoospermia, I had a few thousand sperm, but misshapen, with two heads, no flagele, and a life too short anyway to be able to go to the egg, no more living sperm after 3 hours.

In any case, in castration, there is irreversible and total sterilization. Not even a disabled sperm. And as I told you before, it's part of my conception of a eunuch's life.

On the other hand, you mentioned vasectomy, and when you think about it, it could be an interesting and exciting fantasy. Not really a castration, but a sterilization removing the functions of whole men.

Having said that, I am too advanced towards my castration to play the game of having a vasectomy which I will grant you is a first step towards castration.

The word castration alone is beautiful and scary, especially at the beginning when you start to think about it.

I am working with my endocrinologist to find testosterone which protects me from the effects of castration, especially osteoporosis.

I am on androgel, I have a blood test in early July, and an appointment with the endocrinologist on July 7.

We'll see if the androgel protects me from osteoporosis. But I will still ask him if there is a treatment without testosterone that protects against osteoporosis, to be able to live completely without libido or sexuality. I know that what I am looking for will cause great frustration, but at the same time I am convinced that this eunuch state must be psychologically very exciting.

My wife supports me in my approach, except that she does not want me to have my glans cut. I therefore rely on time and the absence of sexuality for my penis to become a micro penis.

These are some thoughts that you inspired me.

See you soon

Wow, what an amazing thread. I have had no testosterone for 9 weeks now. It has been interesting to go from masturebating 3 times a day to getting off once a week. It has been fun seeing what can still cause me to get hard and surprisingly most of the things that made me hard before, still have the same effects on me now. The thing I am enjoying most is the great sense of feeling freedom from the controls of the flesh. I now can engage in sexual talks and not have to go masturebate or see pics that are hot and not have to hide boners any more. I am very happy that I no longer have those things down there, but the one thing I am enjoying most is the no Testosterone. I honestly don't ever want to feel Testosterone again. I worry about the bones... so maybe Low dose Estrogen would be better? As I continue to monitor the effects of the Testosterone going away, it makes me more curious about how Estrogen would make me feel. Maybe someday I will find out!

Also, I had second thoughts right up until the day of my castration. Something this life changing takes serious thought and only makes sense that you question how you feel about it. That being said, it is a choice I was glad I made myself and not for anyone else.

justapup (imported) wrote: Wed Jun 16, 2021 6:30 am Wow, what an amazing thread. I have had no testosterone for 9 weeks now. It has been interesting to go from masturebating 3 times a day to getting off once a week. It has been fun seeing what can still cause me to get hard and surprisingly most of the things that made me hard before, still have the same effects on me now. The thing I am enjoying most is the great sense of feeling freedom from the controls of the flesh. I now can engage in sexual talks and not have to go masturebate or see pics that are hot and not have to hide boners any more. I am very happy that I no longer have those things down there, but the one thing I am enjoying most is the no Testosterone. I honestly don't ever want to feel Testosterone again. I worry about the bones... so maybe Low dose Estrogen would be better? As I continue to monitor the effects of the Testosterone going away, it makes me more curious about how Estrogen would make me feel. Maybe someday I will find out!

Also, I had second thoughts right up until the day of my castration. Something this life changing takes serious thought and only makes sense that you question how you feel about it. That being said, it is a choice I was glad I made myself and not for anyone else.

I congratulate you on a successful completion of operation! At you now, probably a condition of euphoria... However completely you should not refuse testosterone. From time to time I had to accept it on doctor's orders. Especially at physical activities, for example, at sports activities. Estrogen to me was never appointed.

Gelded (imported) wrote: Tue Jun 15, 2021 4:58 pm I have gone through different stages and ways of thinking. At the beginning it was yes or no I'm going to be castrated . It took a long time to realize that this was what I really wanted.

Now I am drawn to the real effects of castration, I see in the removal of my testicles, emasculation, no longer being a man, not being able to fertilize, not being able to have an erection:dong:, much less 'ejaculation. I also find sex without acorns very attractive. I'm not attracted to total nullification, but a short cock because it no longer has an acorn and no longer accompanied by testicles represents the image I have of the kind I want to be.

The image of the man who has been stripped of all masculine aspect.

What you told me made me think, you know I'm sterile, I don't know for what reason, but my last spermogram said azoospermia, I had a few thousand sperm, but misshapen, with two heads, no flagele, and a life too short anyway to be able to go to the egg, no more living sperm after 3 hours.

In any case, in castration, there is irreversible and total sterilization. Not even a disabled sperm. And as I told you before, it's part of my conception of a eunuch's life.

On the other hand, you mentioned vasectomy, and when you think about it, it could be an interesting and exciting fantasy. Not really a castration, but a sterilization removing the functions of whole men.

Having said that, I am too advanced towards my castration to play the game of having a vasectomy which I will grant you is a first step towards castration.

The word castration alone is beautiful and scary, especially at the beginning when you start to think about it.

I am working with my endocrinologist to find testosterone which protects me from the effects of castration, especially osteoporosis.

I am on androgel, I have a blood test in early July, and an appointment with the endocrinologist on July 7.

We'll see if the androgel protects me from osteoporosis. But I will still ask him if there is a treatment without testosterone that protects against osteoporosis, to be able to live completely without libido or sexuality. I know that what I am looking for will cause great frustration, but at the same time I am convinced that this eunuch state must be psychologically very exciting.

My wife supports me in my approach, except that she does not want me to have my glans cut. I therefore rely on time and the absence of sexuality for my penis to become a micro penis.

These are some thoughts that you inspired me.

See you soon

I m glad I said some useful things. You sound like you are being very thoughtful and careful in researching and investigating your desires and interests. It sounds like you are trying chemical castration for some period of time before you decide if surgical castration is right for you ? I m guessing your sperm tests were part of evaluating how effective your chemical castration has been ? At your age, did you already finish having all the kids you wanted ? You are a prime age that men voluntarily get castrated. How did you first become interested in having your penis glans removed ? Your wife enjoys your glans too much to let you cut it off. That s very appreciative of her.

justapup (imported) wrote: Wed Jun 16, 2021 6:30 am Wow, what an amazing thread. I have had no testosterone for 9 weeks now. It has been interesting to go from masturebating 3 times a day to getting off once a week. It has been fun seeing what can still cause me to get hard and surprisingly most of the things that made me hard before, still have the same effects on me now. The thing I am enjoying most is the great sense of feeling freedom from the controls of the flesh. I now can engage in sexual talks and not have to go masturebate or see pics that are hot and not have to hide boners any more. I am very happy that I no longer have those things down there, but the one thing I am enjoying most is the no Testosterone. I honestly don't ever want to feel Testosterone again. I worry about the bones... so maybe Low dose Estrogen would be better? As I continue to monitor the effects of the Testosterone going away, it makes me more curious about how Estrogen would make me feel. Maybe someday I will find out!

Also, I had second thoughts right up until the day of my castration. Something this life changing takes serious thought and only makes sense that you question how you feel about it. That being said, it is a choice I was glad I made myself and not for anyone else.

Welcome to the forums Justapup. Glad you enjoy this conversation enough to join in. Great to have you back and posting as a freshly castrated pup ! You have lots of fresh experiences to share with any men thinking about getting castrated. All fresh and still occurring in your body. Please tell us how you turned on to castration and how you are brave enough to get yourself castrated ay a relatively young age when most men are busy making babies. What was your experience in getting castrated ? Was it like you had expected and hoped it would be ? And how has your mind and body reacted to going from very high testosterone to zero testosterone in 9 weeks ? Have you seen any changes in your body ? You sound very virile and able to enjoy sex with no testosterone ? How does your orgasm and ejaculation feel now with no balls or T compared to before your surgery ? Thanks for sharing your fresh experiences with other men thinking of getting castrated and from your young age.

Hey Justapup, I just read your really well written post on your journey to getting yourself castrated. You answered so many of my questions above in your previous posting on here. Hopefully you will answer my unanswered questions above and those I just added to your previous post about how you got yourself castrated. Thanks. You proved the legal, safe, insurance and drs route can work for men ! Your work with your insurance company was great. Was it tough to find a willing local dr ?