I start my chemical castration from today (19/12/2020)

i am a boy 181cm/93kg. i was born in 1992.

im not a native english speaker. so these content may contain grammer or spelling mistakes.

The reason why i chose to start chemical castration because i am a AB from ABDL.

after puperty , i hate the changes on my body all the time. Now i live alone and have a boy friend, who agrees to be my big brother and take care of me.

When i am home , i will act as a 7 years old boy (In my heart , this is the real me , i hate grow up and never grow up mentally ，this is not Pedophile!!!), who wets pants and bed and sometimes have big accidents in pants. Not potty trained. I love sit with my big brother , he fed me milk with bottle and see paw patrols. when i at home i wear kids cloths (for 5-10 years old)and use baby things always. when i go out , i will wear clothes for kids from 15-17.

And i decide to start castration progress in order to be a real boy, who will never dream about sex.

Before i start this castration , i was always disturbuted by sex. I jerk my self off since i was 9. everyday at least 1 time(peak in 24 hours 12 times).

after this i hope i will enjoy my childhood one more time and focus on my research work.

I will record a dairy here and tell what happens to my body.

I take the prescription for cure prostate cancer.

here is the detial, i did a lot research before i start this progress to keep the progress safe with minimaize side effects and reversiable.

Goserelin - Zoladex - Goserelin Acetate Sustained-Release Depot. - 10.9mg /every 12 weeks. (GnRH agonist, works directly on Hypothalamus) Testosterone will reduced lower 50 ng/dL after 14-21 days.

Bicalutamide - Casodex - antiandrogen medication -150 mg / day in the first 21 days after the frist injection Goserelin

Tamoxifen - Tamoxifen is used to prevent and treat gynecomastia， which is the most common side effect for boys who start chemical castration、 20mg/day

Additional -- Calcium supplement 1000mg/ day VD3 -- 400IU/day

Just in case -- Testosterone gel 5g/day will keep normal man Testosterone standard :average - 400ng/dL

possible side effects

because of the low stand Testosterone

osteoporosis, hot flushes, headache, stomach upset, depression,, weight gain, swelling and tenderness of breasts (infrequent), decreased erections and reduced sexual desire. decrease in attention and memory.

other side effects

drug-induced liver injury

need to take anlalisys in ALT , AST after first month/ then every three month. if everyting goes well it will be fine in future. (Tamoxifen)

Based on imaging studies, use of tamoxifen has been associated with fatty liver disease in over one-third of patients [62], despite a favorable effect on cholesterol levels. Despite this high frequency, clinically significant steatohepatitis is uncommon. As such, in the absence of other indications, we do not typically monitor liver function tests or imaging for those on tamoxifen.If fatty liver disease is detected incidentally, we typically continue tamoxifen, unless liver function tests are elevated to twice the upper limit of normal (in such cases, we hold tamoxifen and refer to a hepatologist for further evaluation). For others with fatty liver disease, we typically monitor liver function tests every three to six months. (See "Epidemiology, clinical features, and diagnosis of nonalcoholic fatty liver disease in adults" and "Management of nonalcoholic fatty liver disease in adults".)Risk factors for fatty liver disease included high baseline body mass index and triglycerides and low high-density lipoprotein cholesterol.

TO escape from fatty liver and osteoporosis I have a plan to exeicrse at least (Run with low spped) everyday for 30 min. and try to take other exercises after the Covid-19.

according to sciences recearch. exeicrse at lease 4 hours a week from the very beginning of chemical castration will significantly reduce the side effects of osteoporosis and fatigue

TO escape from fatigue i will go to bed everyday at 20.00-21:00 and get up 7:00-8:00 . read some interesting picture story books for big kid(7-10 years old) , my big brother will change my diaper and read stories together.

I do wish go back to a real 7 years old little boy.

Here is the Total Testosterone for male at different age period

Age Conventional Units SI Units (Conventional Units × 0.0347)

Newborn

Male 75–400 ng/dL 2.6–13.9 nmol/L

1–5 mo

Male Less than 300 ng/dL Less than 10.41 nmol/L

6–11 mo

Male Less than 40 ng/dL Less than 1.39 nmol/L

1–5 yr

Male Less than 20 ng/dL Less than 0.69 nmol/L

6–7 yr

Male Less than 20 ng/dL Less than 0.69 nmol/L

8–10 yr

Male 2–25 ng/dL 0.07–0.87 nmol/L

11–12 yr

Male Less than 350 ng/dL Less than 12.1 nmol/L

13–15 yr

Male 15–500 ng/dL 0.52–17.35 nmol/L

Adult

Male 241–827 ng/dL 8.36–28.7 nmol/L

Older adult

Male 300–720 ng/dL 10.41–24.98nmol/L

Size of testicles

left 11.4 mL 5.7*4*3/6

right 9.6mL 5.5*3,5*3/6

penis

Soft 6cm hard 13cm

dreamwatcher (imported) wrote: Sun Dec 20, 2020 11:38 am Here is the Total Testosterone for male at different age period

Age Conventional Units SI Units (Conventional Units × 0.0347)

Newborn

Male 75

–400 ng/dL 2.6–13.9 nmol/L

1–

dreamwatcher (imported) wrote: Sun Dec 20, 2020 11:38 am 5 mo

Male Less than 300 ng/dL Less than 10.41 nmol/L

6–11 mo

Male Less than 40 ng/dL Less than 1.39 nmol/L

1–5 yr

Male Less than 20 ng/dL Less than 0.69 nmol/L

6–7 yr

Male Less than 20 ng/dL Less than 0.69 nmol/L

8

–10 yr

Male 2–25 ng/dL 0.07–0.87 nmol/L

11–

dreamwatcher (imported) wrote: Sun Dec 20, 2020 11:38 am 12 yr

Male Less than 350 ng/dL Less than 12.1 nmol/L

13

–15 yr

Male 15–500 ng/dL 0.52–17.35 nmol/L

Adult

Male 241–827 ng/dL 8.36–

dreamwatcher (imported) wrote: Sun Dec 20, 2020 11:38 am 28.7 nmol/L

Older adult

Male 300

–720 ng/dL 10.41–24.98nmol/L

These ngDL levels are very arbitrary. Levels definitely depend upon which screening is used, and they can vary widely. When I am on T I usually come in between 600 and 800 ng/dl. Off T for at least 3-4 weeks, I test between 50-100 ng/dl, which is an OK level for me. I would definitely doubt the levels for adolescents. I've seen them sometimes approaching 1000 to 12 ng/dl - they tend to be young fuck-machines.

dreamwatcher (imported) wrote: Sun Dec 20, 2020 11:38 am Here is the Total Testosterone for male at different age period

Age Conventional Units SI Units (Conventional Units × 0.0347)

Newborn

Male 75

–400 ng/dL 2.6–13.9 nmol/L

1–

dreamwatcher (imported) wrote: Sun Dec 20, 2020 11:38 am 5 mo

Male Less than 300 ng/dL Less than 10.41 nmol/L

6–11 mo

Male Less than 40 ng/dL Less than 1.39 nmol/L

1–

kristoff wrote: Sun Dec 20, 2020 1:10 pm 5 yr

Male Less than 20 ng/dL Less than 0.69 nmol/L

6–7 yr

Male Less than 20 ng/dL Less than 0.69 nmol/L

8

kristoff wrote: Sun Dec 20, 2020 1:10 pm

–10 yr

Male 2–25 ng/dL 0.07–0.87 nmol/L

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12 yr

Male Less

kristoff wrote: Sun Dec 20, 2020 1:10 pm than 350 ng/dL Less than 12.1 nmol/L

13

–15 yr

Male 15–500 ng/dL 0.52–17.35 nmol/L

Adult

Male 241–827 ng/dL 8.36–

dreamwatcher (imported) wrote: Sun Dec 20, 2020 11:38 am 28.7 nmol/L

Older adult

Male 300

–720 ng/dL 10.41–24.98nmol/L

These ngDL levels are very arbitrary. Levels definitely depend upon which screening is used, and they can vary widely. When I am on T I usually come in between 600 and 800 ng/d
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l. Off T for at least 3-4 weeks, I test between 50-100 ng/dl, which is an OK level for me. I would definitely doubt the levels for adolescents. I've seen them sometimes approaching 1000 to 1200 ng/dl - they tend to be young fuck-machines.

i quote this datasheet from source https://nursing.unboundmedicine.com/nur ... l_and_Free

Damn! It, of course, is frivolous to be the truth. Why such difficulties?

good luck in your trial

First day update 20/12/20

Goserelin need at least 14-21 days to take effects. So i take Bicalutamide antiandrogen medication to make sure my body are escaped from the power of Testosterone

Morning i have a hug erection > maybe at the beginning Goserelin raises the level of Testosterone in my body.

to escape from these . need to take Bicalutamide 7 days before Goserelin injuction.

Afternoon, i try to jerk off for about 30 min. Semen has a high concentration, white color, even more than before.

When I was changed diaper by my boy friend， penis stand up.

I take a analysis of Total Testosterone yesterday and got result today 632 ng/dL.

dreamwatcher (imported) wrote: Sun Dec 20, 2020 1:15 pm i quote this datasheet from source https://nursing.unboundmedicine.com/nur ... l_and_Free

Yes, it does depend which method the lab uses and they will issue their own reference ranges based on the process they used. However, something in the ranges you show would be considered about normal.

I've done 3 6 month chem cast trials many years ago using Depo Provera injections every 4-5 weeks. Sounds like you've done your research but watch for any side effects as everyone is different. Since I'm nullified now, I am also castrated and have just started to let my T levels drop to see how I do with that. Good luck with your regimen and enjoy the changes. Keep in mind, any body changes will be more slight and take quite awhile.