Hi everybody

[Vivian01 (imported)]

I'm a 45 yr old eunuch guy nutless since April 2000. Lost my balls to cancer, the first one came off when I was 12 the other one at 25. Was pretty traumatised by getting done that that in my prime and was deeply ashamed about being a eunuch.

I struggled through the first couple of years but managed eventually to get the replacement testosterone right and was able to perform sexually again. In 2005 I met my wife, a bit older than me, mature in outlook and not fazed by me not having any balls. We've had an active sex life for 15 years and though I've had some physical changes as a result of my castration have almost always been able to rise to the occasion. That is until 2 months ago when suddenly out of the blue I couldn't get an erection. Not a case of not quite hard enough but nothing at all. It was like someone flipped a switch, hard one day, now not a hint of an erection for months. I've had my testosterone and free testosterone checked and = OK for my age, I am fit and healthy, slim, good muscle tone, don't smoke. My wife kindly says she enjoys oral sex just as much as penetration but to me it feels like having my balls cut off all over again. If anyone has experienced anything similar or has any ideas I'd really appreciate hearing. Thanks guys.

[seanthomas (imported)]

I don't think we fully appreciate the subtle psychological effects of this COVID business, not to mention the political and civil unrest we are inundated with daily. Stop worrying about it and look at this time as an opportunity to explore the multitude of sexual pleasures than do not require a hard penis. Toys can open up a whole new world. When you ignore the absence of an erection it will generally come back on it's own, but worry about it constantly and it's gone forever.

[Vivian01 (imported)]

Thanks seanthomas, that's very sensible advice. I should know better that the more I angst about it is going to make it worse. I had thought about a vibrator on but was too embarrassed to mention it to my wife. I'm hoping it's psychological, I went through something similar when I was first castrated but put in down to hormones. Next time we have oral sex I'll suggest a dlido, vibrator or strap on etc and see how she takes it.

[TopManFL (imported)]

I'm a 45 yr old eunuch guy nutless since April 2000. Lost my balls to cancer, the first one came off when I was 12 the other one at 25. Was pretty traumatised by getting done that that in my prime and was deeply ashamed about being a eunuch.

I struggled through the first couple of years but managed eventually to get the replacement testosterone right and was able to perform sexually again. In 2005 I met my wife, a bit older than me, mature in outlook and not fazed by me not having any balls. We've had an active sex life for 15 years and though I've had some physical changes as a result of my castration have almost always been able to rise to the occasion. That is until 2 months ago when suddenly out of the blue I couldn't get an erection. Not a case of not quite hard enough but nothing at all. It was like someone flipped a switch, hard one day, now not a hint of an erection for months. I've had my testosterone and free testosterone checked and = OK for my age, I am fit and healthy, slim, good muscle tone, don't smoke. My wife kindly says she enjoys oral sex just as much as penetration but to me it feels like having my balls cut off all over again. If anyone has experienced anything similar or has any ideas I'd really appreciate hearing. Thanks guys.

Hey @Vivian01,

Welcome.

Thanks for becoming part of the community and making your story part of our collective narrative. Having you here and your experience is important and makes this a stronger group. So, in short, welcome home.

On the forum, you will find that there are as many people here as there are reasons to be here. I recommend starting with the sticky notes in the various forums - they contain many answers to questions that have been asked and answered many times before.

I can't imagine the trauma of losing a testicle to cancer at both 12 and 25. I'm glad you are doing better.

Has your urologist told you why ED came with the removal of the 2nd testicles? Sometimes the nerves get damaged since testicular cancer surgery removes the seminal vessels and at least one lymph node.

Did you have an RPLND as well? Because your urologist can tell you if that damage done during the RPLND might have damaged nerves as well.

TMFL

[Vivian01 (imported)]

Hi TopManFl, thank you for your welcome. I was mostly OK sexually during the 20 years since the removal of the 2nd testicle. It has only been during the last few months that I have had ED.