Getting it finally done
Posted: Thu Oct 22, 2020 2:29 pm
The road to becoming a eunuch is rocky, besides the irrepressible desire that doesn't go away, whatever you do, there are still all the reasonable arguments, all the questions, should I really do that?
And so there was a long break on my way..... Ethanol injections made it possible to atrophy the right testicle, the left one persisted and also survived a few more injections. I didn't dare to try CaCl, my libido has decreased but not gone, erections have decreased but are still possible, the urge to masturbate is still there.
But aas well the desire to be castrated is still there. Sane voices in me still say don't do that and then if you have to take testosterone, that's stupid. Much better when the body produces it itself.
Yesterday I decided to stop listening to these voices and made an appointment for my bilateral orchiectomy. Next Thursday on October 29th I will be finally castrated in southern Germany.
And I'm as happy as a little child before Christmas!
And so there was a long break on my way..... Ethanol injections made it possible to atrophy the right testicle, the left one persisted and also survived a few more injections. I didn't dare to try CaCl, my libido has decreased but not gone, erections have decreased but are still possible, the urge to masturbate is still there.
But aas well the desire to be castrated is still there. Sane voices in me still say don't do that and then if you have to take testosterone, that's stupid. Much better when the body produces it itself.
Yesterday I decided to stop listening to these voices and made an appointment for my bilateral orchiectomy. Next Thursday on October 29th I will be finally castrated in southern Germany.
And I'm as happy as a little child before Christmas!