I was for a short while on this forum one year ago under the user name RRRandy, but somehow my account was removed, so I registered again.

I am from The Netherlands, am 63 years old now and have been for more than 15 years into genital modification. I have a subincision and split glans now. Last year I was planning my surgical castration by a cutter, but in the end I decided not to.

I am glad that I did, because I became more and more aware that a full nullification is what I really want.

I have read a lot about the changes in recent years in thinking about transgender help and that a transition from male to eunuch is becoming more accepted.

So now I have decided to try the official transgender route here in The Netherlands. Last week I had the first talk with my local doctor and so now my new journey begins.

Unfortunately the waiting time here for transgender surgery is very long (2 - 3 years) and I hope to find a faster way of finally achieving my new status.

I will be happy to hear any suggestions for alternative hospitals/clinics outside The Netherlands!

So much for now and for the coming time I will be absorbing all the useful information on this excellent forum.