Hey Everybody 06/09/2020
Posted: Wed Jun 10, 2020 4:43 pm
Hi, my name is Gary. I'm a 23 year old white male from the southeastern United States. I'd characterize myself as curious except that I'd legitimately want to try this. In fact, I'd like to go for it as soon as my life schedule and circumstances would permit, which might be very soon, or maybe not. I don't know yet.
At this point there's still a novelty in my mind associated with the idea of chemically castrating myself. But I'd also like to see positive benefits, physical and psychological. If nothing else I'd like to try it and see how much I like it. Chemical castration is reversible if done short-term so the overall risks probably don't outweigh the possible benefits.
What I'm looking for is:
1. Reduced sex drive
I'm a virgin and I'm perfectly fine with that but I do gain enjoyment from certain parts of my body. That enjoyment is less than it used to be and I can clearly see diminishing returns now.
As I'm a 23 year old man in good health (so far as I know, at least) I presume low testosterone is not a reason for that. Sexual impotency could either push me in a religious direction or toward a more gender-neutral conception of self and lifestyle (either one is fine with me.) I'm not dysphoric and probably won't end up transitioning MtF but I don't like how brutishly male I am now, in more ways than one. If I end up as the kind of person who has meaningful friendships with women (or anyone, really), it'd be best if male sexuality was not a factor (don't ask me to elaborate), and indeed losing that sexuality would boost my confidence to proceed.
2. Reduced Aggression
I have an unbelievably large amount of rage in me. It's not something that I actually direct against physical people but it's there nonetheless. I won't elaborate further but losing this could be very much to my advantage.
3. Reduced Intrusive Thoughts
This stuff has been f**king with my head for as long as I can remember. I've heard there may be a correlation between testosterone and intrusive thoughts so I'd like to see if this can win me peace of mind.
4. Reduced Body Hair
This one's straightforward. I'd be able to have and sustain a clean-shaving face, arms, legs and abdomen.
5. Reversed Balding
This one's more long-term but I have an older brother whose hairline started to recede in his early 30s. That's something I'd like to avoid.
I haven't done a ton of research on this but I'm vaguely aware of the side effects. The main two I'm worried about are cognitive decline and depression. For that reason I'd like to try it with just no T for a certain period (e.g. 3 weeks) and then no T + estrogen supplements for the experiment's second half.
I plan on combining oral Provera (medroxyprogesterone acetate, daily dose of 2.5-10 mg) with oral Estradiol, dosage currently unknown. I'm aware there are medical contraindications from taking progestins and estrogens simultaneously but it shouldn't endanger my life if only done for six weeks. I refuse to inject a big needle into my dick and the possible risk of allergies is one other reason why I'd like to avoid taking a massive dose at once. Diabetes and gynecomastia shouldn't be a concern for a six week trial run.
After the experiment's over I'll decide for myself how I want to proceed with the rest of my life.
6. Increased sociability
I'm mildly autistic, which is a lifelong impairment on my ability to bond with people. I'd like to see first of all what effect simple castration has and then what a brain on estrogen looks like. If I become a more genuinely friendly person that might be worth all negative effects short of death.
Anyways, for so long as I'm here it's a pleasure to meet you all. I can see that I've joined this forum well past its prime years but whoever's still here I'd love to hear from you and preferably your battle-tested experiences transitioning from high-->low testosterone.
(Edit: Whoops, sorry. I meant 06/09/2020. It's still June as of the time of posting.)
At this point there's still a novelty in my mind associated with the idea of chemically castrating myself. But I'd also like to see positive benefits, physical and psychological. If nothing else I'd like to try it and see how much I like it. Chemical castration is reversible if done short-term so the overall risks probably don't outweigh the possible benefits.
What I'm looking for is:
1. Reduced sex drive
I'm a virgin and I'm perfectly fine with that but I do gain enjoyment from certain parts of my body. That enjoyment is less than it used to be and I can clearly see diminishing returns now.
As I'm a 23 year old man in good health (so far as I know, at least) I presume low testosterone is not a reason for that. Sexual impotency could either push me in a religious direction or toward a more gender-neutral conception of self and lifestyle (either one is fine with me.) I'm not dysphoric and probably won't end up transitioning MtF but I don't like how brutishly male I am now, in more ways than one. If I end up as the kind of person who has meaningful friendships with women (or anyone, really), it'd be best if male sexuality was not a factor (don't ask me to elaborate), and indeed losing that sexuality would boost my confidence to proceed.
2. Reduced Aggression
I have an unbelievably large amount of rage in me. It's not something that I actually direct against physical people but it's there nonetheless. I won't elaborate further but losing this could be very much to my advantage.
3. Reduced Intrusive Thoughts
This stuff has been f**king with my head for as long as I can remember. I've heard there may be a correlation between testosterone and intrusive thoughts so I'd like to see if this can win me peace of mind.
4. Reduced Body Hair
This one's straightforward. I'd be able to have and sustain a clean-shaving face, arms, legs and abdomen.
5. Reversed Balding
This one's more long-term but I have an older brother whose hairline started to recede in his early 30s. That's something I'd like to avoid.
I haven't done a ton of research on this but I'm vaguely aware of the side effects. The main two I'm worried about are cognitive decline and depression. For that reason I'd like to try it with just no T for a certain period (e.g. 3 weeks) and then no T + estrogen supplements for the experiment's second half.
I plan on combining oral Provera (medroxyprogesterone acetate, daily dose of 2.5-10 mg) with oral Estradiol, dosage currently unknown. I'm aware there are medical contraindications from taking progestins and estrogens simultaneously but it shouldn't endanger my life if only done for six weeks. I refuse to inject a big needle into my dick and the possible risk of allergies is one other reason why I'd like to avoid taking a massive dose at once. Diabetes and gynecomastia shouldn't be a concern for a six week trial run.
After the experiment's over I'll decide for myself how I want to proceed with the rest of my life.
6. Increased sociability
I'm mildly autistic, which is a lifelong impairment on my ability to bond with people. I'd like to see first of all what effect simple castration has and then what a brain on estrogen looks like. If I become a more genuinely friendly person that might be worth all negative effects short of death.
Anyways, for so long as I'm here it's a pleasure to meet you all. I can see that I've joined this forum well past its prime years but whoever's still here I'd love to hear from you and preferably your battle-tested experiences transitioning from high-->low testosterone.
(Edit: Whoops, sorry. I meant 06/09/2020. It's still June as of the time of posting.)
