I stopped taking androcur back in October. I was at less than 20ng/dl, so castrated. Couldn't get an erection, no seminal fluid. Over time erections came back, but not as hard as they were before. It was a strange feeling to wake up on my stomach and not be able to get an erection. I actually enjoyed that experience. Anyway, started a relationship with a very attractive woman half my age. No intercourse because of her religious beliefs, but not far short lol. I always remember, from being a kid,being so embarrassed that I couldn't be near someone without getting an erection. After chemical castration that just didn't happen. As much as I tried, I just didn't get hard. This weekend that all changed. I had sex with a man, I bottomed. Halfway through the act, on my back knees round my ears, it was like a switch got turned on. I got a very hard erection that didn't go away till long after he had left. In bed last night, my girlfriend kissed me rather passionately, and bang, immediate erection that was still hard when I fell asleep. Woke up this morning and as soon as I was conscious of her next to me, it happened again. It's like being 16 again. If it wasn't for the fact of meeting her, I would almost definitely be chemically castrated and possibly surgically right now. I am enjoying these feelings again. It just goes to show me how complex and complicated my feelings for castration are. Not being in a relationship, feeling alone and not wanting to be in another relationship makes castration a really sensible option to me. If I was , I probably would not be in this relationship, my reality would be something quite different, but just as acceptable and normal to me. Just thought I would share.

Very interesting! Strange it would come back so suddenly. Does your partner know about you having sex outside the relationship? Just curious since you mentioned she is religious.

She does know, yes.