Hello,

I have posted on this forum many times in the past and at this stage I am both pissed of and angry about how things have turned out. I would be very grateful if I could receive advice on finding a doctor who can finally fully surgically castrate me, without charging a huge fee (e.g. over 3000$), preferably in Europe, as I feel like a human guinea pig at this stage, to say the very least. To clarify, I only want my testicle removed, no Penectomy.

Anyway, a bit of backstory:

I currently live and have always lived in Bulgaria (Eastern Europe). I won't mention my age, so that I don't attract an unnecessary amount of attention and concern, as you would think that I am very young to be considering castration (just to put it out there, I'm over 20 years old, at the present moment), but I started down this path over 6 year ago. My motives have always been centered around my desire to pursue a full sex change, when I have the necessary funds to have better and more advanced surgeries (if I can afford them), in the future and so far, I have no regrets about what I've done and I've been taking oestradiol regularly for over a year now.

But, going back to my initial journey to become an eunuch (fully castrated). The story is as follows:

- I started injecting myself with pure Ethyl Alcohol (95%) in November 2013, one injection in each testicle, every week for several months, until I had completed about 10 shots in each testicle.

- Around April 2014, I switched over to Calcium Chloride + Ethyl Alcohol (95%) injections, again, one injection in each testicle, every week, until I had performed a total of about 6 shots.

- At this point my testicles were very small and hard. I was exhausted and didn't want to bear any more excruciating pain, so I began considering ways in which I could be surgically castrated. However, as I was pretty young at the time, with no money to spare, and due to the fact that it is almost impossible to find a doctor who would be willing castrate you in this country, I knew that I only really had one option, I was going to do it myself. So, after about a month of research and preparation, I did it, more details can be found in the thread: I am truly mad (no link, sorry about that). Unfortunately, I was unable to finish the job and I only removed one testicle, which I flushed down the toilet, in order to prevent someone from reattaching it (no joke, when I went to the ER, the doc was asking where my testicle was, so that he could reattach it). I went to the emergency room and was sown up, however, as I found out later, my other testicle was not removed (lucky me..).

- After a consultation with a psychiatrist and becoming pretty much famous with the urologists in my hometown (with a population of about 300,000 - 400,000 people, by the way), being called a crazy lunatic and so forth, I decided that there was no point in pursuing the matter further.

- Fast forward several years: the fact that I still had one semi-functional testicle started bugging me again. I was getting regular blood tests at this point, which showed a Testosterone level, which was way above the normal castrate levels. I decided that I was going to revisit the Calcium Chloride + Ethyl Alcohol (95%) injections again. This time I was not kidding. I injected myself over 5 time, just in one testicle, trying to completely and utterly destroy it, which seemed to work. It shrunk to the size of a green pea and was pretty much hard all over.

- At this stage, having moved to a new town, I decided that I was going to try and get castrated by a doctor (biggest mistake ever). I went to a local urologist and easily convinced him that I had testicular cancer. After a lot of exams and second opinions, I was admitted into a hospital and was prepped for surgery. I was very happy & excited at this stage and was waiting to become an eunuch. So, the day of the surgery comes by and I sign all of the consent forms. I go into the OR and I am very happy, as I am being put under general anesthesia. A moment later I wake up and I am in excruciating pain, with a drain coming out my scrotum. Turns out that the doctor made a 5 cm gash in my Inguinal Canal (even though he said that the surgery would be through my scrotum), he took out my whole testicle and sliced it apart, removed about 95% of it and...after failing to confirm that it was cancer (during the surgery), puts the rest back in and sows me up (this was done, so that I couldn't "sue" them for castrating me, as they were unable to confirm that I had a life-threatening condition). And as such, I am left with 5% of one testicle. The doc then explained to me that I will not have further surgery, unless it can be proved, beyond a reasonable doubt, that I have cancer. Naturally, I am fucking furious at this stage.

- After about 5 months of contemplating the fact that I am now a mutilated semi-eunuch, I was fed up with everything and decided to attempt and castrate myself again. Anyway, I sliced myself open again, tried to take out the remainder of my testicle out, but it had fused itself to my scrotum, due to the past surgery. Fuck me right? Yeah, I was bleeding, had an open scrotum, so ... I called an ambulance and the cops arrived. After mocking me for 20-30 minutes and calling me a nut-job who should see a psychiatrist, I was taken to the hospital to be sown up and get mocked and stared at some more. The doctor there was actually pretty kind, however, he said that legally, he can only sow me back up, so that's what he did. But, he did promise to castrate me, given that I could prove that my testicle was completely afunctional.

- I decided to try my luck and pursue a castration, the legal way. So, I had a rather expensive radionuclide test of my testicle, which showed that my remaining left organ had a total functional capacity of under 10%. Turns out, however, that this still means that I cannot be legally castrated, as I am able to convict the doctor for "mutilating" me and he would receive a prison sentence of between 3 and 10 years, while also losing his medical license. And no, I cannot sign an informed consent form. He said that it would be equivalent to me signing a consent form for informed suicide and that the only realistic way for me to have my remaining testicle removed is to ... you guessed it ... do it myself, but at the same time he admitted that I wouldn't be able to do it, as it had fused itself to my scrotum.

Just to clarify, in Bulgaria, removing a mans testicle, thus rendering his impotent, without a life threatening condition, is considered as grievous bodily harm.

I hope that this long / short story explains my predicament clearly. I live in a country where my doctor recommends for me to perform DYI surgery on myself, as there is no other way in which I can be legally castrated. I am at loss and furious.

Please help me, so that I could finally end this nightmare. I think that this is the most ridiculous thing that I have had to go through in my life and I am willing to pay, so that I could get it over with.

when my urologist removed my last testicle he had to document it carefully so he wouldn't face medical scrutiny when he removed it. even though I really needed it removed for medical reasons. the laws are very strict about doing this

Chesleyt (imported) wrote: Thu Aug 22, 2019 12:24 pm when my urologist removed my last testicle he had to document it carefully so he wouldn't face medical scrutiny when he removed it. even though I really needed it removed for medical reasons. the laws are very strict about doing this

Yes, it is understandable to a point, however, I do believe that it is absurd for this to be damn-near impossible task to fully accomplish. To be honest, even a cutter sounds like a way better option than the three surgeries I've had so far. I guess I am just pissed of an looking for a solution at this stage.

Cutters in US are often unexperienced and with dangerous work I often have read. Beware!

Dr. pricing is fraud. A vasectomy cost around 400$ and a orci 3000$ ... but it's nearly the same surgery... really easy to do with absolute low risk.

Don't understand that nobody doing anything against that!?

Castrations are a big big cashcow for him.

Yeah, not much help, but 10 months after my $ 400 vasectomy and realised my balls were not at all well. It still took over 4 years and many medical 'interventions' to finally remove them. Would have cost the govt insurer 10s of thousands $$ to what was obvious

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cboy0815 (imported) wrote: Thu Aug 22, 2019 9:41 pm are often unexperienced and with dangerous work I often have read. Beware!

Dr. pricing is fraud. A vasectomy cost around 400$ and a orci 3000$ ... but it's nearly the same surgery... really easy to do with absolute low risk.

Don't understand that nobody doing anything against that!?

Castrations are a big big cashcow for him.

There, fixed that for you. It's not like cutters anywhere else in the world are any better, no need to single them out by country.

Losethem (imported) wrote: Fri Aug 23, 2019 4:54 pm There, fixed that for you. It's not like cutters anywhere else in the world are any better, no need to single them out by country.

Thank you Losethem. While I understand the frustration as well as any here on the forum it is imperative that we are consistent in our advice to not break the law and to be extremely safe with our lives. I am so glad you took the time to fix that for him. It needs to be understood that our only safe route to achieve our goals of castration is through the proper methods that assure the best outcome and at the same time not setting a bad example for those that follow. Yes, it is very frustrating for those of us who are desperate in our quest. JBcastrate like many others have a rough road to go down. But if it is all about money, our priorities are not in the right order. I mean after all, if we count all the money we consume on things that are nothing more than distraction rather than saving and preparing for our priorities we will have success. Just think about all the money spent on coffee shops, dining out, BEER, the latest gadgets and clothing etc. It amounts to enormous sums of money. All those frivolous life choices become far more important than other priorities. Set your priorities and stick to it. You will succeed even if it means going to another country to achieve your priorities. So simply set your priorities in life. While I had the funds to achieve my goals back in those days finding a surgeon willing to help me was the difficult part of achieving my goals. But I never stopped looking. Society evolved over the years and I was finally able to reach my dreams. Castration in this day and age is acceptable in many countries by the medical community. Just set your priorities and stick to them.

It is truly a very hard path to follow. My remaining tiny bit of a testicle barely functions and with estradiol alone, my Testosterone levels have been in the castrate range for over a year. Still, it can at times bug me to insanity, the fact that there is still something left, however small.

I do hope that I will be able to find a doctor eventually and get this over with, preferably without going to a cutter, but, I have no other options, one must improvise. Even if it is not the safest path to go down.

JbCastrate, I completely understand how you feel. I had to endure that for decades until I finally decided to really do something about it. Too bad Dr Murray Kimmel isn't still alive. He would have done the orchiectomy for $2,000 with no questions asked or strings attached. Might have even gone down to $1,500 if that was all you could afford. Don't give up. Repeat. Don't give up. Be fully determined to achieve your objective to become a eunuch. I know you have gone thru a lot of sheer misery. At least you are chemically castrated and have castrated testosterone levels because of the one damaged testicle left and by taking the estrogen. You should be feeling better just by doing that. It boggles my mind at how the medical profession is still so ignorant, insensitive, and lacking empathy in this day and age about this whole thing. Us eunuchs just have to keep on fighting, scratching, and clawing until we accomplish complete and total victory. Anyway JbCastrate. Keep looking for a suitable surgeon. If you would like, I can look into surgeons here in the U.S. and see if they can do it. Let me know ok? Take care and the best of luck to you.

I have a eunuch nonbinary gender identity, am suffering from gender dysphoria, and seek an orchidectomy to treat my dysphoria by aligning my body with my identity. Transgender healthcare services are becoming widely accepted and available to nonbinary transgender people. Are transgender healthcare services available in Bulgaria?