I've been exchanging private messages with someone on here that posted a few years ago a question about why so many Transgenders in porn videos had curves in their penis. I've been going thru hormonal changes as somewhat experiment and other reasons. I recently did a 6 month run with no T, I was on estrogen. anyway my penis has always been straight as an arrow. During the period without T, I pretty much don't get erect. When I took T again after then 6 month, my penis now has an dent in it and curves to the right. It doesn't bother me since I'm switching back to E and erections will soon go away again but I thought I'd post to see if other's have experienced this.... I did google search and curves seem to be connected to low t.

Do you put that down to lack of use ?

When I went without T last year and mine was pretty much the same as before after a 7-8 month break..

I'd still use it just wouldn't get completely hard and I used it less frequently.

My penis is super curved, meh........Wouldnt be shocked about peyronies disease. I think its due to too much spanking the monkey with it lol.

By the same token I cannot have fulfilling pleasure in topping someone, i just cannot cum that way even if im aroused. Possibly attribute this with scar tissue bc it actually hurts if I continue fucking someone. My lovers love it but i hate it.

The penis has to go and having root tissue remain to keep the phantom boners is the best course of action to get me randy as a sub.

I expect the libido to drop substantially under strong E and low dose antiandrogens but I think theres a certain novelty to keeping those dangling orbs so that they can produce a tiny fraction of T so I can still crave for sex. (or jump start it so to speak)

And thats the thing about mtf castration. I often get a few of them mention their sex drive has hit rock bottom and for the few that still want some way to spark that hunger well its just not there.

I personally believe that without the testes its difficult to regulate a E and T ratio thats best suited to ones sexual needs.

Let me get this straight, I dont hate my "male" sex drive. To some mtf females, its an abomination but to me I think its a neccesary catalyst to get things going along with maybe progesterone and whatever miniscule androgens are output by the adrenals.

if it means having to uptake more E and go on Spiro then so be it to acquire the femenine looks and secondary characteristics.

I hope not to go on cypro, it'll for sure shutdown testosterone entirely from what ive gathered. Even small doses does the job and gets you very emotionally moodswingy. Thats precisely why i want spiro instead of cypro.

It'll mean cutting back on bananas , plantains and pottassium in a lot of my fav foods but its a neccesary must for me.

From what ive gathered, spiro is the weaker anti androgen, cypro is the stronger one.

I need a little T to jumpstart a decent sex drive. Even natyurally born females need T to jumpstart a good sex drive and get them hungry.

In summary I hope to get this:

E > T

low -med spiro

Testes intact

cock removed

NB : In future I'll consider getting a castration and fake nuts inserted into my nutsack if I can no longer cope with regulating pottasium and if blood clots become an issue. well have to see what the blood works indicate bc naturally i tend to bleed and it takes a very long time to heal from cuts and abrasions.

I took me two weeks to heal from my wisdom teeth whereas my sis and dad it took them 1-2 days!!!!!

My dads on heavy anti coagulant medications and blood thinners , hes not fat either and in very good health, his clotting is abnormally quick and hes not on warfarin.(something a lot better than rat poison that doesnt require as much medical checkups)

I did have tests done at some earlier point around 3 years back and it revealed I suffer from low blood pressure similar to my mom. In fact ive passed out a few times and need to have some candy with me or something to evade vertigo. Ive passed out a few times on the job too and no I do not have diabetus