It's been over a year since my operation from Dr Arnkoff.

I am definitely glad to have received the bilateral orchiectomy, I have not doubted since that time whether it was right to have it done. Yet, the changes that have happened to me since have been quite radical, both in body and mind.

I did promise last year I would write a lengthy blog about this experience, and I am sticking to that promise. But, the last year has been very extreme for me, and it still is in some ways as I am now recovering from trialling TRT for many months.

Though, if there are any questions that anyone would like to ask me, please ask.

I want to get more involved with this forum. I would like to talk frequently with the members on here. Maybe to make some fellow eunuch friends too, would be nice.

As I'm starting to feel the most stable now in the last year, I'm reading again. Are there any good books anyone can recommend regarding eunuch culture/issues?

Welcome back and congrats on achieving your goals. Hang in there as things will only get better in life as you move forward.

Have you or will you post your blog on here or elsewhere on line?

Congratulations, and welcome to the club. Are you on any TRT now? Low dose or none at all?

Hey @supernatural -

Glad you are doing well and are back. The fiction archives have a variety of stories that have so many parts they are virtually book length. Also, Amazon allows the self-publication of adult-themed books. Most are e-books. I had to dig a bit deep into the various sections but there were many adult eunuch themed books. As to a particularly good one - I've found that the BDSM fiction on Amazon tends towards the middle of the road - it's not terrible but not page turning either.

Thanks for the warm messages everyone, it helps a lot

My blog will be on other websites. But when I do I'll leave a link in a new thread for everyone to see.

I had 2 injections in the backside. Both last year; the first in september, the last and second in december. I was due to have another in march, but declined to. The feeling of coming down from the TRT is a bit different from coming down from naturally made testosterone (which I experienced last year after the surgery). Principally, for me at least, coming down from TRT is taking much much longer than to come down naturally post-op.

Prior to the surgery my T level was 12.3nmol/L.

Before receiving my first T injection, my level had dropped to 0.6nmol/L.

On the day of my second injection my T level had increased to around 4nmol/L.

I have not had any T level check since then. But perhaps it is fair to say it doubled to around 8nmol/L, perhaps?

The aforementioned has all happened within just over a year, so it has been quite an experience.

I will certainly check out those fictions at some point. But I am quite interested in historical and present cultural examples of eunuch identity (e.g Skoptsy, Hijra, etc.)

Hi Supranatural. Dr A did my orchie a month ago, so I'm still recovering from that. Stitches just came out (with some encouragement) yesterday. Recovery has been rougher than I expected. My brief description of his services, in my case, is that he will do an orchie with minimal paperwork. If you want your balls gone, he'll do it effectively. In my experience, whatever he does for the stitches to close things up is, well, not sophisticated. It seems like a greatly simplified quick lash-up compared to videos I see online. Loop a few stitches through everything, and just live with the mash up. Anyway...

How was your experience with loss of testosterone from your orchie?

Cool...just for reference, I did the conversion to conventional T measures and 12.3nmo/L is about 355 on the ng/DL scale, and 4 is about 115. Normal range for 20-40 yo is 315-1000 with about 630 being average.

My experience from the loss of testosterone from the surgery was immense.

It essentially culminated into an identity crisis as my personality changed (for the better). I think that if you are on the edge of such a change inside of you, having such a change in your hormonal status can, and may, flick a switch.

I remember crying in bed one night as I realised how alone I was in life. My partner was there to comfort me. This was very strange as I have been introverted for a long time and have took great comfort in solitude to contemplate and be at peace. Yet, I quite quickly had this "eunuch feeling of vulnerability" quickly develop. My endocrinologist said that many eunuchs report this. But that as well as just a burgeoning desire to be sociable, which again seemed very alien to me. Perhaps this could lead credence to a sort of natural desire for eunuchs to collectivise together? (which I am having as well).

Oh, and I also had these other brief moments of what I can only describe as feelings of spirituality. I became a christian for the first proper time in my life in the last quarter of last year, and I developed an appreciation for poetry, nature, and flowers (I'm not joking lol).

When I went onto TRT, these feelings diminished, and I generally reversed back into my previous personality. With the aforementioned points decreasing in influence on me.

Now I am in the process of having the last TRT in me deplete. I am going to live for the rest of my life as eunuch without TRT. Although I am no longer a Christian now (due to ethical disagreements), my desire to be around nature, feel spiritual, and read poetry, is starting to grow again.

In fact, I hope that I can be like I was last year when my T-levels naturally dropped after the op. I want to be sort of like that person again. I was a better person. More better and happy than I have ever been. And I can feel myself moving closer to it

I will discuss the above in much more detail when I complete my blog story one day. I am thinking of making a Youtube video of it as well. All in good time

I am looking forward to the positive changes that I can feel are increasing as the days go by. Though, I would still consider myself in the T-withdrawal phase at the moment, so it is challenging at the moment (depression, anxiety, concentration issues, etc). But I think I have gone through the worst of it now.

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Yes, I thought I might have had too high of a T-level before as I was hoping back then, that it was, so that it could've been treated and then not needing have the surgery. But I think deep down I knew that my physical pain would not go even if there was any link with a high T-level.

I will probably have another T-level check in a few months