I have been visiting the Eunuch Archive for years. Not really sure how long, but back when I started visiting Dr Felix Spector was one of the primary doctors in the US offering castration. One thing I have always appreciated about the forum was the ability to read the posts without logging in or having to register. I think that is a great service to the community. One reason I didn't want to register was to protect my identity. I didn't want family or friends to be able to find something I posted.

I have never come out as being gay or straight. The reality is I am more asexual. I have never been into the dating scene. I have lived alone since graduating from college 23 years ago. I haven't gone on any dates, created a dating profile, or hung out at a bar in that time.

Back when I first discovered the Eunuch Archive, the topic of body modification was a fantasy, something to get the hormones pumping. There was a thrill to being castrated or having an arm or leg amputated. The knowledge that castration was permanent and irreversible prevented me from taking the next step, although, I searched websites that might offer castration without a lot of questions asked.

I have played with an elastrator and have banded my balls several dozen times, although, fear always wins out and I clip the band off after less than a minute.

I feel like I might be ready to make the commitment to castration. I am tired of being driven by hormones and doubt that I will suddenly find a wife and want to have children. Chemical castration always seemed like an option, but I don't want to self prescribe a drug that I have to order in secret online. It has never been an issue I have wanted to try and discuss with a doctor face to face.

I can't promise that I will post a lot, but I figured it was finally time to register.

Welcome to a great website. I agree this website letting non members view the posts is a great service to many people who don t want to register for many different reasons. It sounds like you had to admit to yourself that your own interest has gone from fantasy jacking off to seriously looking into getting yourself castrated. I m sure lots of men do follow that same progression from it just being a jack off fantasy to thinking you seriously want to know more about steering your own balls over time and thinking it over.

My advice would be to go out and have tons of sex first. See what you think of enjoying your balls and sex drive to the maximum. Then see if you still want to seek castration. That way you minimize the risks of regretting it. You re certainly old and mature enough to choose to be gelded. But try out your sex equipment before you give it up permanently. Best wishes on how you decide to go forward.

Hey Nova,

Welcome

cutnbulls2ox (imported) wrote: Mon Feb 11, 2019 11:10 am My advice would be to go out and have tons of sex first. See what you think of enjoying your balls and sex drive to the maximum. Then see if you still want to seek castration. That way you minimize the risks of regretting it. You re certainly old and mature enough to choose to be gelded. But try out your sex equipment before you give it up permanently.

That just isn't in my nature.

The closest I can say about regrets is when I look ahead to the future and I am 65, single, never married, no kids. I won't have anyone to visit me in the nursing home or to handle the finances if my memory fails.

No guarantee that marriage and/or having kids will provide that anyway. Might as well live how you would like to live and prepare by doing things you actually have control over...