I've noticed a curious pattern. Back when I had balls, the desire for castration often became overwhelming when I was half asleep. I'd be lying in bed and suddenly I'd be seized with a strong sense that I needed to be castrated...the sooner the better. It felt urgent, but at the same time it felt pleasurable, like the decision had been made and now I couldn't wait to see it through. This happened many times, and now it's happening again with my penis, so much so that I often find myself reaching down to tuck it between my legs while I'm drifting off.

Has anybody else experienced anything like this? Seems like evidence for the existence of the unconscious mind, if you ask me

Mine was more generalized and recurring discomfort having genitals. I would have done it all at once had it been available to me at the time.

Your experience does seem similar in that it's recurring. When the time for my penectomy approached (arranging it) I started having similar thoughts. It was like the brain was preparing for my penis to be removed.

Hmm a bit like losethem, i just had a recurring feeling of discomfort in having male junk. It was probably more urgent anytime i was aroused and definately in the month leading up to my surgery but was a fairly regular feeling anyway. Completely gone since ive had my balls and penis removed though.

You're Chrissy from Eunuch Maker, right? I read your update from a month or two ago. How are things going now?

Might have the wrong chrissy im sorry

Qunuch81 (imported) wrote: Fri Dec 29, 2017 8:20 am You're Chrissy from Eunuch Maker, right? I read your update from a month or two ago. How are things going now?

Different Chrissy, Qunuch. This person has had a vagina constructed to replace what was on their crotch and not the operation to make themselves flat like mine. Eunuch maker Chrissy is more like me on that.

Sorry to dissapoint haha. Im certainly flatter than i used to be but not to the extent that Losethem is.