Well, today is the day I finally meet with an endocrinologist about chemical castration. I have had two other appointments in October and November that I canceled. The first I canceled because of a work travel conflict, the second I canceled because honestly I was kind of nervous and didn’t feel ready. I had a lot of unresolved fears about how my wife would handle me being a eunuch.

Well, I’m glad to report that my wife is FULLY onboard with me being a eunuch. Way more than I ever expected she would be. Back around Thanksgiving I brought it up again with her. We had spoken briefly about it before and she was supportive. However, I was still afraid that she probably thought I was crazy for wanting to be a eunuch. Turns out we had more in common than I expected. I had made another post about her up-to-then secret fascination with eunuchs. I was floored when she confessed it to me. She had a lifelong fascination with eunuchs from her early teenage years and me becoming a eunuch was actually a big secret fantasy of hers.

I had decided about a year ago to stop using my penis for anything sexual. So our usual sex is touching, caressing, kissing, and me bringing her to climax manually. We were making love a couple of nights ago and were interrupted by our oldest son having a stomachache. My wife put on her robe and got up to give him some Mylanta. In the meantime I had gone completely flaccid. When she came back in, she touched me down there found that I was completely soft. She remarked how much she loved the way I feel when I am small and soft down there and said she hopes I can stay like that someday.

She has been reminding me since Sunday to not forget about my appointment today. I find it kind of funny and cute that she is so focused on making sure I see the doctor and get medication to become a eunuch. She’s even been trying to find out how much it would cost to have surgery to make it permanent. While my motivation for being a eunuch is different from her feelings, I find it helpful knowing that my wife is actually enthusiastic about it. I thought it would be some weird thing that would bring tension to our relationship. But it’s turning out to be something that is bringing us together in a common interest.

Good luck with your meeting. Great you are doing chems first. I was pleasantly surprised with the support from our doctor. She commented that many marriages are wrecked by mismatched libido. Having support from your wife is crucial. With out my wife’s support I don’t think I could have lasted the first year due to side effects.

Don

All the best, and I hope that chemical castration works out for you. I think it’s fantastic that you have a supportive wife.

It’s nice to hear that some doctors are supporting their patients who for whatever reason wish to live their lives testosterone free.

Thanks for the supportive responses. The meeting went very well. I just need to get my therapist to send a letter of Support and get some lab work done, then the doctor wants to try Spiro. It was actually really simple. Going to an LGBT clinic makes it super easy. I’m not gay or transgender, but since they deal with that stuff all the time I think they thought I was such an easy case with low risk that they cleared me for treatment pending support letter from my therapist.

After the meeting with the doctor, my two last obstacles were to obtain a letter of support from my therapist and have a metabolic panel done. My therapist agreed yesterday to write and send the letter next week, and I am having the metabolic panel done this morning.