It's been a while since I've used this website. I know that I've written some strange and somewhat incoherent messages before. Lately I've been somewhat busy. I used to be all gung-ho, or wholeheartedly enthusiastic and loyal to the idea of, surgical castration. I didn't want chemical castration. I wanted to go straight for the jugular, the most vital and vulnerable part, and end all my lust once and for all by either getting a doctor to remove my testicles or doing it myself. I've change a little. I'm not as interested in castration as I was before. I feel that I've been gaining ground in my battle against this sin. I've been doing no fap. I suppose you could call it that.

It's easy for me to avoid masturbating. I've fought quite a bit to stop it. Today is actually the first day in a while that I started with the autoeroticism, or sexual self-gratification, again. I've been clean for a long time. I don't remember exactly how long. It's been getting easier to avoid it, especially now that I work as a stock associate for a certain American company. Whenever I'm scheduled to work I usually work for nine hours. I work from 2:00 pm to 11:00 pm. The days that I work change, but the time always stays the same. I really like my job and I like the fact that I work a lot. It keeps me from autoeroticism, or masturbation.

Your goals may be different from mine. My ultimate objective is to totally stop masturbating and watching porn. If that's not for you, then great, but that's what I want. I know that porn is one of the most destructive things in existence. I feel like it has negatively affected my mind. Often after I masturbate I feel as if I'm drunk, or intoxicated, or my mental and physical faculties have been impaired by alcohol. I've never drank alcohol or done any drugs in my life and yet after I masturbate it feels as if I've done drugs or drank alcohol. I often to unintelligent things. I sometimes feel like I can't think clearly at work and I do stupid things, and I feel like I can't control that. At times I feel as if I have some sort of degenerative disease of the mind.

I'm going to be in a relationship soon. I'm a virgin. I've never had a girlfriend. So is the Christian girl that I've been talking to. I'm an evangelical Protestant Christian and I want the best for her and our children. She's truly a Godsend. So I want to totally stop masturbating. Any information helps. Feel free to inbox me any helpful information that you may have anytime. I want to know how I can get chemical castration, or if there's any drugs I can take to kill my sex drive. I have Sunday, Saturday, and Monday off. As I told you before, today I caved in. On my days off I could really use something to help me stay away from my intense sexual desire. It's easy to cave in on those days. Thank you.

There are several chemical castration medications that many on here have used. I was on Depo Provera for two years followed by Androcur for another two before making it permanent. Both work very well and you can adjust your dose to the libido level you need. Do a search here and there are a lot of recommendations. The meds are easy to get in the US from overseas suppliers (I last used www.alldaychemist.com). In my case my doctor monitored me. Always a good route. Good luck with your future girlfriend and controlling your libido.

Don

Beware of chemical castration drugs as they may leave you permanently sterile. Not a good outcome if you want children. A trial of six months or so should be OK and it will let you experience what castration feels like, albeit with testicles still attached. Go longer and you are playing Russian Roulette with you manhood and fertility.

It is very understandable to you have a high sex drive because of your young age. When i was your age i also had a high sex drive and couldn't keep my dick in my pants. I looked for ways too, but just be careful in what you choose.

Don t worry about being extra horny all the time. That is very normal at your age. Its just how lots of men are built and made to function. There s nothing wrong with it. Most men do struggle to keep up with and satisfy high sex drive s constant want and need for sex and masturbation. Aging alone will help decrease your sex hungers and you will get used to dealing with your high sex drives better and better.

Since you want to father kids with your balls and sperm, be careful what you do to them. You don t want to damage them enough to be less fertile or sterilized unintentionally and before you have all the kids you want from your body s 2 sperm factories. Maybe look into banking and freezing some of your likely extra healthy young sperm now, just in case what you do to reduce your sex drive damages your testicles and sperm production. Sperm banking costs around $600 to $1000 to set up and freeze your first sperm samples. Then it costs around $400 a year to keep that sperm frozen until you want it to make babies some future day. It helps to get your sperm checked now to see if you are fertile and know how fertile your sperm is before you do anything to your balls and male hormones that might affect your ability to impregnate and father children.

Sex and having a male sex drive is completely normal. And almost every religion wants men to get married and fully enjoy lots of sex and father kids some day. Its simply harder to satisfy your high sex drive for the few years you are single and have no wife to enjoy great sex with. If you were married right now, you could enjoy all the sex you want with no problem at all. Its being unmarried that is causing you to want less sex drive now. You marry the right woman, and she might want and enjoy all the sex you can give her and maybe have a higher sex drive than you do. So, you are just temporarily wanting more sex than you are getting. That will change as soon as you get married and want extra healthy balls, sperm, hormones, and high sex drive to make babies with a wife. Then you won t have any problem at all from having a high sex drive.