Nowadays we know better.... Homosexuality is NOT a disease to be "cured" , but way back then - in 1968 - matters where still a trifle different...

I was 14 in 1968, and my parents ( mental cases in their own right ) where determined to " cure" me and have a "normal " child....

Basically the cure was turning me in a sexless doll for the duration... this did - in a nutshell- involve chastity (belt worn at home) supervised sexual exhaustion and medication to make me impotent.

My question is: Are there members on E.A. who have had similar experiences, and who want to discuss these with me, either here on the forum or in private ?

Cocktamer,

I did not have a similar experience. Although I was 8 years old in 1968.

I don't think I can even begin to imagine the feelings and horrors you went through.

I always remind myself that what comes out after the baby is not the instruction book on how to raise this unique human, but the placenta.

But, in this case I blame the doctor willing to give you chem castration at 14. I've had my fair share of time with doctors - both as a child and an adult and know how single minded they can be.

Contact me if you just need a friendly ear, to vent or just wanna say hey.

TopManFL (imported) wrote: Thu Jun 15, 2017 2:34 pm Cocktamer,

I did not have a similar experience. Although I was 8 years old in 1968.

I don't think I can even begin to imagine the feelings and horrors you went through.

I always remind myself that what comes out after the baby is not the instruction book on how to raise this unique human, but the placenta.

But, in this case I blame the doctor willing to give you chem castration at 14. I've had my fair share of time with doctors - both as a child and an adult and know how single minded they can be.

Contact me if you just need a friendly ear, to vent or just wanna say hey.

Thank you for your kind words; The damage they did to me was psychological, as i later bodily did recover. That "cure " did not cure anything - but it did give me a chemical castration fetish, and that is why I'am here now on the E.A.

Ten years ago, I met a wonderful man - that was september 2007. Two years later we did marry and we now live together in Sweden ( husband Stefan is a Swede )... so in the end I got what my parent's where desperate to prevent from happening...

Shit like that should never ever be imposed on anyone...

Which medications were used (if you are ready to talk about it)?

It was pills... but i do not know what.; ( they where round & white...) I did start out on 3 / day ( = together with meals ), but after 4 weeks that was increased to 4. I also noticed that after 4 weeks my cock started to weaken... 2 weeks later it was again increased to 5 Pills /day... less than 2 weeks after that I had a death cock...

I was tested for sexual ability every 2 week ( a vibrator was used to see if I could get hard ) and the medication was gradually reduced to 2 pills / day.

6 weeks later, my cock did start to recover... I was kept on a maintenance dose of 2 pills / day. My cock did recover to the point that I could manage 1 -2 cums a week ( supervised masturbation with a vibrator ) If I did manage more, I had to take a extra pill until he was again sufficiently weakened... So i was not really "impotent " , but at a very low pitch...this was kept up for the next 6 month's.....

There was the constant monitoring of my cock ( erection sensor), the mandatory masturbation & bi- weekly ability test at the doctor's...& extra pills every so often...

I do not think the medication was Androcur as 2 X 50 mgr / day is a hell of a "maintenance dose " - and 2 pills where not sufficient all the time to keep mine weakened enough....

So i think it was something else...

Very sad story. It's really ... I lack of words to explain ... I'm very sorry for you.

Jag hoppas ditt liv är bättre nu i Sverige med din man.

I hope my kids never look back and tell a story about things I did as a parent that horrifies me! So far so good. My mother was a bit of a nut job. Didnt like having a child, and was disappointed i was a boy. One of the strangest "therapy" sessions I had was regression. As a 13yo (or around that age) being diapered by a hippie therapist in the 70s and made to wet my diaper and regress to an earlier age to reassign my feelings and emotions was a little strange.

Cocktamer. sounds like you came through it pretty well

I am very sorry for what you had to endure but I hope you have found happiness today. The closest I came to anything like that was when mom wanted me to go to a psychiatrist. She was afraid I was growing up to be a pervert. Pervert, I think was her word for being gay. I was born in 1956 and she was concerned when I was 12 or 13 years of age. Having read your experiences I am glad I refused.

There's a comment on a blog entry about chemical castration from someone who was given DES (di-ethyl stilboestrol, a non-steroid estrogen) to chemically castrate him as a teenager in the 1950s because his parents feared he was gay because he was "more interested in Ballet than Football":

It was a matter of 'Take your pills'. It stopped me growing, but it also stopped my sex drive. Not having this at the onset of puberty meant my sexuality never developed. I got off the drug in my early twenties, as an adult, but the damage was done. I've always had a very low libido. Manage to self-stimulate about 3 times a year. Could sing soprano until about 60 years of age. Could lactate. Never had much interest in women, men, or boys. Didn't understand risque jokes. Until recently, wasn't aware that people had strong sexual agendas. Socially, it's a bit like having Aspergers syndrome. So it's a strange life, but I can concentrate on task and not be deflected. Some people don't understand what it is like to be a eunuch. In many ways, I am childish. I don't read adult books or like romantic films. I find them boring.

http://serendip.brynmawr.edu/exchange/s ... ophiliacs- (the comment is on page 2 of the comments).

DES was also widely used on women at that time and caused birth defects in the children, particularly daughters. Not sure if it's still available because it was proven to be harmful.