to be a woman

[michele4848 (imported)]

As the usual story goes, I have wished I had been born a girl. like many I dressed in my mothers clothes. I knew what a girl didn't have between her legs, but it took a while to learn about boobs. like many boys we explored each others bodies. We didn't understand male and female yet, but I felt like I should be submissive. I liked making a friend get hard, and learned to do oral. later like many of us I was caught dressing in moms clothes by my mother. I was berated as usual, but I continued to do it. I got some clothes and had a very secret place to be the girl I wanted to be. My friend then saw me dressed and I was the girl. I let him take me , He was the MAN and I made him cum. It felt so good. As life goes on times changed and I began working and later fell in love with a girl . We married way to young had 2 children and divorced. I remarried . work was everything. then to old erge came back. She tolerated a lot but I took it to far and we divorced. I always had a deep felling for my best friend. I loved him as a woman loves a man. , but never told him. I would have gladly gotten castrated for him, and had grs for him. Supported him like any good woman would. I wanted so many times to tell him but never had the (balls). He married 4 times. I know I could have been the best wife for him. I know I would have been the most loyal, but. he later passed on, and I felt as though I had lost a part of myself. I remarried a 3 time and was very happy , my wife died suddenly, so now I am somewhat alone . My step-daughter although shes an adult and has her own life , she acts like a child most of the time, lives with me. I cant dress like I wish , but I do shave as much as I can, legs, chest, pubs and because I am over weight I have small boobs, which I like. I wish I could get on hrt. I still dream of being a woman, and envy Catlin Jenner. I needed to get this off my mind. To all of you on here that take that big step, I appauld you. Michele

[Uncle Flo (imported)]

Nicely expressed. Thank you. --FLO--

[Olgaorchi (imported)]

It is tough. I feel enormously lucky that I was able to transition even though it took a lot of work money time and stress. But it's never to late and you are no less transfemale just because you haven't transitioned.

[bobbilee (imported)]

Olgaorchi,

"it's never too late..." I am 71 and have been trying to get castrated for 9 years. I guess I have not been trying hard enough. The VA won't do it but now, what with the "Choice" program, I am going to try the private hospitals. I'll try for one more year...then I think it will be too late.

[michele4848 (imported)]

hi bobbilee, I hope you get your castration soon. I have wanted to be a gurl since I was a kid. all I can do now is dress when I can shave what I can and dream. best of luck michele

[bobbilee (imported)]

thank you, Michele !

of course i will post a new thread when i am legally, medically, spiritually, psychologically, socially, economically ...etc. a "unique eunuch."

'bobbi'

[mketgirl (imported)]

Very well said, I think there are a lot of us in that same boat. Although I agree with bobbilee, it is never too late!

[michele4848 (imported)]

Something happened this morning. My boy-bits are getting smaller. Im about 1 1/2in soft, and not quite 4in best hard, and I don't get erections very often any more, all of this makes me happy. I don't masturbate very often cause I don't like those parts, and just don't feel the need. I'm sure there are many like me out there. On rare times when I do , I try to do it like a woman, that is massaging the clit. I felt the need this morning , and massaged my clit and played with my breasts. It took a lot of time, but I had a deep long orgasm with no erection and very little and very clear fluid. I have never felt this before in my life. Is this truly a female type orgasm? I hope someone can tell me.

[april973 (imported)]

Something happened this morning. My boy-bits are getting smaller. Im about 1 1/2in soft, and not quite 4in best hard, and I don't get erections very often any more, all of this makes me happy. I don't masturbate very often cause I don't like those parts, and just don't feel the need. I'm sure there are many like me out there. On rare times when I do , I try to do it like a woman, that is massaging the clit. I felt the need this morning , and massaged my clit and played with my breasts. It took a lot of time, but I had a deep long orgasm with no erection and very little and very clear fluid. I have never felt this before in my life. Is this truly a female type orgasm? I hope someone can tell me.

It sure sounds like one. I'm hoping to be at that point sometime in the future. How did it feel?

[bimale4fun23 (imported)]

It's never too late to live out our dreams, we must have the right mind set and the will power to get things done.