bibiribi (imported) wrote: Mon Feb 20, 2017 10:17 am
1. How do you prepare mentally to castration?
Much of my preparation was based on fantasy at the beginning. The more I studied, read the more I thought living the rest of my life as a not T eunuch was for me.
I would not say there was a medical reason since everything was working well. There was a psychological need not to be under the influence of T.
bibiribi (imported) wrote: Mon Feb 20, 2017 10:17 am
3. After surgery, how you developed your mental capacity?
I would have to call it emotional capacity. Happy was happier and sadder was so sad. Adjusting to the greater range of emotions was like riding a roller coaster.
Stayed the same or improved. I was free in my ways to decorate my home. Developed a greater appreciation of art at museums and my own collection.
5. What has changed in your daily life? No longer wasting too much time looking for a body to fulfill my sexual addiction. Always looking for riskier sexual thrills.
Becoming my true self I liked myself more. I thought I would be more passive and accept what life had for me. Oh no I stood up for myself. Nothing became worse.
bibiribi (imported) wrote: Mon Feb 20, 2017 10:17 am
7. What emotional and mental changes are made to calm the eunuch?
As a no T eunuch I think the calm comes from my behaviors not being fueled by T. I am in control and my desires are minimized.
8. What are the benefits? As I have mentioned being a eunuch is very natural for me. I feel as a third gender floating between M&F. I have less conflicts since people perceive I am not a threat. Children and dogs love me. I am currently working in hospitality industry and it is interesting to watch someone who begins to become aggressive realize it is not necessary. People calm in my presence.
My physical strength has lessened but when I put my mind to something I can still get it doe.
Wanting to remain a no T eunuch I do not seek any follow up care. I tell my doctors that I am a eunuch but I am not interested in any hormones.