hey. my name is Bret and ever sense puberty I have had a sexual attraction and increasing impulses to testicle destruction and burdizzo. beginning at puberty and continuing through adulthood I have had chronic aching and pains in my testicles and 5 years ago after seeing a doctor for it I was told that I am hyper sexual which don't get me wrong I enjoy my high sex drive I produce a much higher amount of sperm which basically makes me horny 24/7 and basically I get blue balls at the drop of a hat and I discovered that has been what is causing my pain, I think having pain in my nuts from puberty has caused me to be sexually attracted to pain and my fixation on destruction to my testicles and castration. I was wondering how many of you with this problem have had the same issue at a young age? I say problem because for me its a problem I understand for some of you it is not a problem and I do not mean any disrespect to that but for me I love my masculinity and by balls and its all most like being cursed like being a moth attracted to a flame to be cursed with being a guy that loves being masculine and his nuts to have an impulse to have them destroyed.

I am looking for other guys that have this same problem or guys that have had it done for guidance, I have looked into HRT and have a particularly fond attraction to burdizzo this problem is mentally effecting me and was thinking of maybe even trying chemical castration for some relieve from my sex drive, I do however work in adult entertainment and work for a cam site so I need to be functional so I am really torn I feel kind of like I am in a mental rut with the issue and can really use some guidance and friendly advice.

sorry if it sounds like kind of a rant just really mentally burnt out about it and looking for others who understand the issue

thanks for reading looking forward to any replies or connections that might come from this post

Bret

Hi and Welcome to this site.

Don't worry too much. Because lots of us men with balls are just like you and spend our whole lives as moths diving into that same intense flame of castration and always turning away at the last minute to save our balls and manhood. Its pretty common among extra high sex drive men to want more control and to reduce their sex drives some. But those of us who have lived with this same thing for a long time know its very managable and you can keep it as only a harmless and very hot fantasy if you want. You're young and your sex drive will go down with more age no matter what. You can only get castrated 2 times at most, so why rush it. If you hold off you will have lots of years to decide and to get castrated if you want it for real. You're doing right to find out more on here and to talk to men who both kept their balls and those who got castrated to learn more about castration and your own strong urges and cravings. Lots of us healthy and very normal men have the same cravings and urges as you. Talking to more men will prove this for you and talking with castrated men will help you decide what's best for you. Just private email me if you want to talk more to a man with his balls still hanging strong. I'm just like you and have buddies who love castration but choose to keep their balls for life and some who got castrated. Read the endless and great archive stories on this site and you'll see lots of men who think and feel just like you in their revealing and hot fiction stories. Welcome and good luck.

You could try to use external Testo. It's working awesome on me and my drive to self harm on genitals is extreme lowered under TRT.

It's still a good phantasy but it isn't so extreme anymore like before... it's more nice to think about it.

Could be from lower testo level or from little higher E2, I don't know but it's extremely better now and I can think now about other things then everytime only about sexual things.

Hey hows it going? Thanks for the recomendation, so after taking it you still have a swx drive just not as horny? And nothing about your body has changed like ability to build muscle, beard or body hair? I go to the gym 5 days a week for my work i need to maintain a masculine body. If just lowers my sex drive to where i only need to jo 2 times a day rather than 5+ and my urges to harm my self it would be a merical to me. Im going to look into it after posting this and maybe look into a drs appointment. I made a drs appointment for 2 mondays ago about chemical castration but i chickened out and didnt go

Hey cuntbulls thanls for the reply. Was wondering if you or any other guys here with the same ussue are hyper sexual. And experanced pain at puberty age? Reason i ask is my therory on it is guys who have that issue pain the the genitals when sexdrive is deveping if maybe that caused the impulse and sexual attraction to pain

You're welcome glad to answer you. I'm definitely hyper sexual in every way lol. Love being a man and hyper masculine just like you and love being so hyper sexual and horny all the time and have been since puberty like you. I've always eagerly jacked off so much I didn't have ball pains or blue balls much at all. But I can see if your balls did hurt a lot of the time how you'd start to associate pain with sex and pleasure as time passed. Its a natural thing to feel what your balls are feeling and doing as a big part of your ideal sexual play and orgasms. I've never been into pain. just the fantasy of castration and emasculation with the birth control and sex drive control as part of it. The emasculation part of it seems to be a very big part of it for a lot of hyper masculine men to enjoy and imagine for themselves. Its like most of the archive story fantasies and stories turn ons seen on here are about hyper manly and masculine men getting castrated to negate their hyper masculinity and sexual prowess. More like it makes the biggest differences in hyper masculine men instead of fem or wimpy men. Not many stories on here about craving geldings of unmasculine men, more towards hypermasculine men wanting or needing it or having it tricked or forced on them. Your hot photo looks pretty hyper masculine and hyper tough like a male most castration fans would like to see gelded and unmanned against his will. Like only the top males need castrations to bring them down a peg or to control or weaken them. Pain seems to be more of what men into intense and extreme sexual stimulation and orgasms seek out to add more excitement and greater highs of pleasure to ordinary sex and get more of a big rush from it in peak sexual excitement and when ejaculating. The male thrill seekers who just want to enjoy over the top intense sensations from sex.

I'm guessing for a lot of men circumcision might be an intense pain experienced as an infant that could cause a lifelong association of pain and sexual pleasures and sexual organs that might lead to a castration fetish later in life. Think of it, just born and one of the most intense and earliest physical sensations of that young male's life is being so brutally cut in his penis without any anesthetics and painful healing after the cut. Seems like a lasting impression would be left in his mind and affect his ideas of his penis and testicles for life. It'd be real interesting to see if there's any correlation between circumcisions and later castration and penis removal fetishes in men who were circumcised at birth.

Another turn on you see a lot in stories is "am I man enough to take being castrated, especially painfully," like using a burdizzo clamp that's done without painkillers in most real life nut clamps on livestock. Extra manly and hyper masculine men like the pain and challenge of getting to sexually experience and agonizingly feel what is most men's worst nightmare and staying man enough to handle it and overcome it and remain a man even after losing his balls. A handsome leather man like your pic shows would know a castration and a willing burdizzo clamp is one of the most intense and painful sensations a man's sex organs can experience and still survive it. Men into burdizzos are into pain and the challenge of "can I take it like a man" and "can I volunteer for a clamping and endure the pain of a long clamp time" ? Huge goals for men into burdizzo castrations it seems.

That freedom from the constant strong need and deep urges and cravings for endless and ever more intense sex that castration stories offer is another big turn on for sex addicts and hyper sexual men seeking a relief from their intense sex drives and bottomless needs and desires for ever more sex and greater intense pleasures. Cutting your balls off or destruction of nads frees you from that slavery to your sex drives and needs. The gelding gains control of his life again.

First off, you can't masturbate too much!

If you are wearing sores on your cock, use more or better lube.

It's a big fantasy, and there are castrated porn stars. The interview with "TheEunuchMaker" in "Alphatribe world of male fetish"

claims he knows some, If I were you, I'd see if you could talk with some of them.

TRT is expensive, know that you may have to pay for it for the rest of your life. And in some places it may become unavailable.

Hormone blockers are available from the grocery store without a prescription for about $20 a month if you want to try it. Erections are still achievable but they take much more effort.

As River used to say, "your mileage may vary."

I have actually spoke to the eunuch maker about clamping me but however i am in CA by SF north bay area and he lives in the uk. I have been searching cutters in north bay i found a few but they flake ir do not want to clamp me because of the pain it will cause. The goal was to record it and hopefuly use 2 clamps and do both nuts at the same time, its like what was said a few posts ago its like to chalenge my masculinity and take the pain to be more of a man after.i want it to basically be real torture. I cant find any cutters willing to torture me

Like as ot was put "am i man enough to take being castrated" when i was searching i was and kind of still am looking for someone who can record it and someone willing to tie me down gag me and use 2 clamps and clamp each side. Im told its too painful but if i can handal the heavy cbt i have done i can handel being clamped