Dear members of eunuch.org,

To be honest, I am a bit confused between fantasy and actual wannabe regarding

castration, penectomy, and genders.

The idea of being castrated is a source of strong arousal for me, which I guess is

more fantasy inclination. On the other hand, I feel attracted towards feminization

in a deeper way.

I am a bit tired to "be a man", be in charge, take decision, challenge other

men opinion, not being allowed to cry.

These behaviors that are socially expected from men do not fit with my personals

inclination. It feels that castration would deliver me from these issues, an ideal

scenario would be for me to find a partner that while being loving and caring, would

take the decision for me.

Thanks for those who will read this intro, many thanks for those who would take some

time to give me honest advices.

Best

Welcome to the zoo! This is the right place for you to clear up your confusion. Most of us here have had to resolve doubts before deciding what we really want or need. --FLO--

Welcome! this will be a great place for you to read, share and seek advice. I was castrated before I found the EA so help with a decision was not needed. What the EA helped me with was defining the new me and helping me find my place as a new being.

On one hand I never felt successful as a male but after castration, oddly, I became more assertive. We each change in our own ways.

Glad you are here and this is a safe place to share.

It took me 50 years to finally understand I would rather not be a normal male , a few more years to be certain I did not want balls , some time , via calcium chloride and advice from eunuch .org, to get rid of them and a few months to regret I had not done it years and years ago.

Stephanie, a very happy eunuch

I would like to also extend a big welcome there is a wonderful support group here!

Thank for all these answers!

Feels good to know I am not the only one with these issues/fantasy

:)Welcome aboard

Hi Bitchboy, Welcome to the Archive. I feel the same way about getting a personal penectomy except reason must rule the day so I believe its healthy to fantasize until convinced otherwise. Maybe one day. I wear womens satin french knickers to deal with my feminization issues and it works!