I'm speaking as a compulsive masturbator who uses it to self-medicate due to shame associated with my sexuality (ironically). I associate sexuality with really negative feelings and use masturbation to numb that pain. it's the cause of, and solution to, my problems. lol. do you guys have any experienced comparable to this? Does it have a healing effect?

VicistiGalilaee (imported) wrote: Sat Aug 27, 2016 9:29 pm I'm speaking as a compulsive masturbator who uses it to self-medicate due to shame associated with my sexuality (ironically). I associate sexuality with really negative feelings and use masturbation to numb that pain. it's the cause of, and solution to, my problems. lol. do you guys have any experienced comparable to this? Does it have a healing effect?

It sounds like what you need is, not castration, but some counseling to get comfortable with your sexuality. Did your parents make you feel shame about being a sexual person? I strongly suspect that the problem is in your head, not your testicles.

Sandi

I agree with Sandy get help first and then see where it goes! I am castrated and love it but for you it would only add to your problems as it may just add guilt, frustration at the loss of outlet of your feelings if no T, with T no real change to ability to masurbate, added suicide potential and depression to start with! Find out the real root of the problem then proceed to a cure whatever that path may turn out to be!

Here is another vote for you to discover how your shame developed and why you are still shameful. I have been a non T eunuch now for almost two decades. Prior to castration my sexual addiction caused a lot of problems for me. I was always wanting kinkier, riskier sex. Having been sexualized at a young age I was often out riding my bicycle in search of some action. After orgasm I could not believe some of the things I did and the people with whom I did them. Things only got worse when I was old enough to drive. Now I do not have enough of a sex drive to follow up on my fantasies but the kinky multiple people fantasies still continue during masturbation and erotic dreams. A lack of testosterone will lower your drive but the lack of drive may not remove the shame.

I often say castration lowered my sex drive but it did not fix my brain. My behaviors are now easy to control but my desires, reduced as they are, are still the same.

Most pereptive post, tugon. I don't think I've ever seen it put that way. Thank you.

tugon (imported) wrote: Sun Aug 28, 2016 10:43 am Here is another vote for you to discover how your shame developed and why you are still shameful. I have been a non T eunuch now for almost two decades. Prior to castration my sexual addiction caused a lot of problems for me. I was always wanting kinkier, riskier sex. Having been sexualized at a young age I was often out riding my bicycle in search of some action. After orgasm I could not believe some of the things I did and the people with whom I did them. Things only got worse when I was old enough to drive. Now I do not have enough of a sex drive to follow up on my fantasies but the kinky multiple people fantasies still continue during masturbation and erotic dreams. A lack of testosterone will lower your drive but the lack of drive may not remove the shame.

I often say castration lowered my sex drive but it did not fix my brain. My behaviors are now easy to control but my desires, reduced as they are, are still the same.

Very interesting. But if I associate sexuality with shame, won't eliminating the sexuality also, at the very least, reduce the intensity of the shame or frequency of it occurring? I really want to at least get beyond my porn and masturbation addiction.

C&TL2745 (imported) wrote: Sun Aug 28, 2016 4:41 am It sounds like what you need is, not castration, but some counseling to get comfortable with your sexuality. Did your parents make you feel shame about being a sexual person? I strongly suspect that the problem is in your head, not your testicles.

Sandi

But I have come to so fundamentally hate sexuality that I no longer want to experience erotic desire or engage in any kind of erotic activity. It's not something I want to redeem with counseling, but something that I just want to get rid of, and this is due to sexual frustration and belief that I could never make a good partner.

I've never been in a relationship before and I've never engaged in sexual intercourse. I never really had any friends before I started attending Twenty-Eight on Friday, September 12, 2014. I have more friends now than I've ever had before, most of them are Christians, and most of them are girls, and very beautiful girls. I got a girl's phone number 17 days ago through Facebook. I have a healthy and muscular body. Most of the people that've met me believe that I have a brilliant mind. The only problem is that I've had a problem with masturbation and porn since I was a 7-year-old child. I've never gone an entire year without watching any adult entertainment. I believe that the only way I'll ever be free of these infernal shackles is through castration. I've thought about that since I was a freshman in high school. I graduated high school in 2012. Four years ago. I'm in Tampa, Florida. I intend to fly to New York State by Thursday, September 15, 2016. After I arrive there I may take care of it. I couldn't care less if I lose my life in the process. I've got nothing to lose. I tend to get irritable, easily irritated or annoyed, after I masturbate. Sometimes after I stimulate I feel drunk and as if my cognitive faculties have been impaired, and sometimes I feel as if I have a hangover. After castration I'll finally have the peace I've been yearning for. That's what's been on my mind lately, anyway.

Hi, i can sympathise with the problem. I have always been a chronic and compulsive masturbator. I went through a couple of years of chemical castration to see what effect it would have. The answer was just a slight reduction in frequency but no great change.About a year ago I went down the calcium chloride route. As the testosterone levels dropped there was a slight reduction in the frequency again. Following removal of the testes 6 months ago the frequency dropped radically , almost to zero. The Doc started me on testosterone gel 2 months ago and almost straight away the old habit started up again.I am experimenting with how little T I can use for health reasons but keep the cock in check.

FYI the reason I removed the balls was not to stop the masturbation, thats an unexpected benefit, it was that I just did not like having balls, the look of a eunuch is just so much nicer.

Stephanie , eunuch since feb 2016.

To Strangesunshine

Hope you don't, I have been working on this decision for decades and many I write to here have a similar history. Removing your sex drive (and that is what you are trying to do correct?) will not necessarily stop you from surfing porn. YMMV is seen often around here because it is a fact. You may sufur porn less, and mastribate less but there are no written guaranties. I also have a highly active sex drive, it does give me lots of moments and long periods were I wish it would just leave me alone. That said "infernal shackles" and time lines you write of are all self imposed. So maybe, like me, spending some time with a consular will allow you to articulate reasons to do this beyond, my life is not what I want. I now can express those reasons but it took work on me. None of us here can control your future behaviour, but we all would tell you, you have a whole life ahead of yourself, and like us you need to learn how to make your life as worthwhile as you deem possible, weather or not you get castrated. BTW there is no time limit to getting castrated, you can do it anytime in the future. And you will still have a future, make yourself feel great about you.