Hello,

as you already might know, I strongly think about getting nullified. But I still can't stop thinking about the question if I would regret losing my genitals sooner or later, even though I think of it for many many years.

Maybe my concerns are not necessary, as most or all guys here seem to be really happy about being castrated respectively nullified. Is that really true that there occur no regrets, or if, the only regret is not having had the surgery much earlier?

Or do people who have regrets simply don't tell here about it?

Maybe you can help me through this and tell about your experience regarding this issue.

Not sure how many responses you'll get from this as it seems like most of the people who participate on this site have a pretty eunuch positive attitude. I'll take a stab at it though as I'm already on the record as saying I wish I hadn't totally fried my balls with CaCl and wished I had been able to stop when my libido had been reduced by the CaCl but not eliminated.

I am not on HRT and maybe if I was I would have a different perspective. I'll start by saying I absolutely HATE the hot flashes and night sweats associated with low T. I have always had issues with insomnia and the night sweats make it a lot worse. Then I get the bonus that now when I haven't slept well I get depression which I never dealt with before low T. On those days I just have no energy to do anything and really question my decision to fry my nads.

At this point I should probably be on TRT (I've tried estrogen a few times and I don't think it's the right fit for me). However, I've never wanted to do it partially because I've always blamed T for the bulk of my problems in my life. I'm in therapy right now (which I should have been in prior to starting CaCl), and I'm realizing that T probably was not my primary problem.

I have days when I absolutely love my new status, and others days when I'm really bummed. Today is a day where I'm somewhere in the middle so I feel like I can keep it real.

I am only chemically castrated with triptorelin (what is similar to surgical castration) but I have absolutely no regrets so far. I would choose surgical castration if I had the choice...

Thanks for your answers. Hopper, what you say fits almost 100 percent what my therapist tells me. He draws very dark pictures of being without T. In the beginning I thought it would be necessary for me to be without T, but my mind changed a bit over the time. What I absolutely don't want are negative side effects or feminization, so HRT would be an option for me.

Being without T is not my first goal. The most important thing is a feeling that my genitals need to be removed. This feeling is very constant and grew stronger and more obvious over the past 25 years.

hopper44 (imported) wrote: Sun Mar 27, 2016 6:15 am Not sure how many responses you'll get from this as it seems like most of the people who participate on this site have a pretty eunuch positive attitude. I'll take a stab at it though as I'm already on the record as saying I wish I hadn't totally fried my balls with CaCl and wished I had been able to stop when my libido had been reduced by the CaCl but not eliminated.

Hopper44,

Your comments are incredibly important and provide good insight into the flip side of where I'm at. I'm incredibly happy I had surgeries that resulted in my complete physical emasculation, in your case "frying your nads" may not have been a good idea. You're being honest, and we need more honest feedback like you've posted.

While yours is not a surgical change, you've had the chemical change. I know of two other people who have at least partial regret to having done this (one a complete nullo, the other a eunuch) and while they have regret, they are incredibly positive people who have taken responsibility for their decision to irreversibly alter their bodies. Other than dealing with the now lifelong issues related to eunuchdom, they are otherwise healthy and happy, they just wish they had their parts back.

I know at least one of those I mentioned above still pops into the archive from time to time, so he can provide his own insights beyond this if he wishes.

I suspect the reason we do not see more of these responses talking about negative experiences is that the men who have done it and have that experience fade from sites like this due to their regret. So thank you for providing your input Hopper44.

--LT

It is just about a year since I was physically castrated. Like Hopper44 I also started on the injection route. I have no regrets at all.

I went the CaCl route to get rid of my testicles due to ongoing testicular pain resulting from a vasectomy. I just wanted the things gone and done properly by a medical professional. I achieved the just over 2 years ago. I never intended to go T free and have actually been on T replacement since about 6 months before my castration.

I can honestly say that I don't regret having had them removed at all. I am very happy with the result, but I do believe that there are many who go this route, possibly either through medical necessity or for the fantasy value who will be very unhappy with their results.

While I am very happy with the results, I would caution anyone considering castration to be absolutely certain that this is what they want before proceeding with castration or nullification as once they are gone, they are gone for good..

For myself there is no regret for being castrated which I love, the only regret I had is that I paid attention to the thinking that I had to be without testosterone to be a eunuch and lived for some time after being pretty miserable. I am only speaking for myself but life without T was horrendous, no energy and I mean none, putting on weight, depression that I never had before which was frightening in its bleakness, then more depression because I was putting on weight, I missed having a sex drive and sex which completely disappeared, and then I realised it wasn't testosterone I didn't want, it was testicles, I take testosterone now and am very happy, I have the body I want and the sex drive has returned as well, So for me there is no regret about being castrated but thinking I had to do it without testosterone. You can be castrated and it doesn't mean you have to be without T, and while others may think you are not a "proper eunuch" because you take T, who cares I dont live my life for other people I dont know, I live it for me and taking T and being castrated works for me, so no regrets about the physical act itself, just what I did after.

ballsrgone (imported) wrote: Mon Mar 28, 2016 5:40 am I am only speaking for myself but life without T was horrendous, no energy and I mean none, putting on weight, depression that I never had before which was frightening in its bleakness,

That's close to how I've been for the last week. I blame it as much on my insomnia as the low T though. I swear if I could get a good night's sleep I might be grinning ear to ear again about where I'm at. I tried mucuna pruriens (dopamine) this morning and it seems to be helping me out of my funk.

I´, chemicall castrated with cacl2, I know that testosterone is not the cause of the problems s, but eliminating T seems help to make us feel better.

I was HRT on injections of oestrogen and progesterone so I was feeling so good, but I developed a prolactinoma and stopped all hormones

I dont like being with no oestradiol, anxiety, bad sleep gained fat, hot flushes...It´s not too bad , but what I really hate was having lost my feminine shapes, that is what give me most pain,I can bear with the bad sleep overwheigh and others "menopausal sympthoms" but I can´t endure at all having lost my femenine features!

my regrets are not because being chemical castrated but I have not had a HRT medically supervised.