I myself am castrated...but I still don't understand why...in all logic I can't think of a reason as to why I wanted to be castrated or why I want to be a girl it doesn't make sense to me...I am glad I got it done...but I dnt understand why still...what is it that drives me and I'm sure many other people here have the same wishes...to effectively destroy our own sexual organs... Or to change our body's...I guess I might seam a bit weird...I want to complete my sex change so badly but for the life of me I can't think of a logical reason why...only that I want it done...

Maybe logic does not apply here.

I am pure logic. My wife is pure emotion. It surprises me how many times her reaction to life is the better reaction. Maybe you should quit trying logic and go with emotion.

calamity (imported) wrote: Fri Jan 29, 2016 2:54 am I myself am castrated...but I still don't understand why...in all logic I can't think of a reason as to why I wanted to be castrated or why I want to be a girl it doesn't make sense to me...I am glad I got it done...but I dnt understand why still...what is it that drives me and I'm sure many other people here have the same wishes...to effectively destroy our own sexual organs... Or to change our body's...I guess I might seam a bit weird...I want to complete my sex change so badly but for the life of me I can't think of a logical reason why...only that I want it done...

Thank you for posting this. For years and years I'm wondering WHY??? Why do I want to get castrated? The simplicity of your remarks is so refreshing. Accept that I want it, it is as simple as it is. It reminds me of a conversation with a friend about an ex lover. I wanted to understand why he behaved as he did. My friend answered:"Don't try to understand, just except the fact that he behaves as he does.

Questioning Why, why, why, is also a form of not accepting the reality.

I know what you mean iv come to the conclusion that in all honesty there is no logic behind it...I just simply want it done...but I'd love to know if there is any physiological aspect to this...the problem is I'm a logical thinker...I dnt have a very strong imagination and I believe everything has to have a reason...

My ocd is just killing me with it...

I suppose sometimes the simplest/most obvious answer is the right one...

Me I just want to look in the mirror and see an empty crutch, it just looks so appealing to me, a matter of aesthetics rather than logic.Ever since the age of 8 when I saw my cousins girly crutch with no dangling bits I have wanted to look the same.I have had balls for a long time and as is often said a change is as good as a rest. Off with them in 2 weeks.

Steve soon to be stephanie

My dysphorias is my reason, I don´t hate my body, I dnt hate my balls, I hate the "Secondary sexual characteristics" that testosteron gave to my body, I hate the masculine features, I donpt hate my penis It´s just like IT should not have been there.

Try reading about gender dysphoria, as well as BIID - Body Integrity Identity Disorder.

I have allways had an identity crisis with my nuts .I recon the symptoms of BIID seem to fit the bill with me.

Probably if I lived in the states I would have seen a doctor in Detroit and got it sorted but in the UK its either DIY or some guy with a "Stanley" knife (both not good for your health).

I have had this condition all my life so I believe it to be a genuine problem and not a temporary sexually driven fettish.

I don't even want to calming or feminizing effects and would choose to go on male HRT if I were to be done.

Why? indeed

I wish I could tell you, but I had the same compulsion. Could not stop myself and had to remove it all. I am so much better without everything.

You have asked a very challenging question. And an unanswerable one. It was not something you did on impulse. You thought about it a lot at the time and it was in tune with your sexuality. But we really can't get back of that. Why are some of us straight, some of us gay, some of us TG? As a number of people on this thread have said, in various ways, when you ask "why" you are not asking a question that can be answered by reason or science or logic. It was the way you felt and you felt it strongly. That's all we can say about a lot of our life decisions. For myself, I had myself castrated during a long and unhappy marriage and for those years thereafter I felt very comfortable living without any sexual dimension. Then I got divorced and met someone and started on testosterone gel. I am equally comfortable with that decision. I could spend my time thinking about whether I should have gotten divorced and skipped the castration, but regret is always a waste of time. I would have missed a very interesting experience that helped make me what I am today. So my advice is to own it and look forward and not back. And good luck