First a big thank you to the archive.

Without the archive I would have been lost a long time ago.

Help of the members before my surgeries and after was extremely important to me.

5 years on.

fairly good generally. Still on TRT. Down to 0.5mL of 125mgs every 2 weeks. That actually is not as bad as it was the last time I tried to reduce the rate in March of this year. So since August I have reduced it to every 2 weeks.

Otherwise not so bad. 37 years old so I am sure that the body begins to change more.

Happy 5th and heres to a lot more.

Wellesley (imported) wrote: Wed Oct 14, 2015 11:11 pm 37 years old so I am sure that the body begins to change more.

So, what have been the changes you experienced after five years, while still on TRT? I'm 65 and just about two year into this, and for me, no changes (actually things are better) but I wonder what the future might bring for me.

Happy fifth Anniversary!

This year will be 10 years.

I spend 16 months off T. I loved being completely asexual, it was the absolute best time of my life. The freedom I felt was amazing.

I had to return to T replacement in December 2019. My liver was actually going to explode. The fat and liver function humbers were terrible.

So it has been 6 months back on T. Full on. 66mg/ per week IM injection.

It took about 3 months for my sexual drive to return. About 4 months for my penis to return to "normal", it grew back to something near the size I remember.

Question though:

8 years ago I was really thinking about penectomy because if sexual frustration. I have not thought about it since really.

Now I am really, really attracted to the idea of penectomy and going fully asexual. I wish I will be able to reduce the amount of T in the future.

Or am I just crazy because I am back on T. I notied how much it changes my thinking and feelings. I actually do hate that I am attracted to women sexually again. I find it really annoying.

This year will be 10 years.

Wellesley (imported) wrote: Tue Jun 09, 2020 10:20 pm Or am I just crazy because I am back on T. I noticed how much it changes my thinking and feelings. I actually do hate that I am attracted to women sexually again. I find it really annoying.

There does seem to be some reality of how different hormones over time change our outlook and attractions. I've never taken "T" in my life other than the naturally produced stuff before my nullification surgery. And what you said about hormones altering your sexual attractions makes a ton of sense. Before removing my Testosterone factory I had never once been attracted to men and had sufficient relations with women. Now that I've not had "T" and been on "E" I find my only attraction to women anything but sexual. On the other hand My attraction to men has certainly changed to include great sex. That may just be the results of the attention they display towards me. I know that I have never considered myself to be homosexual, heterosexual or asexual. Just never really gave it any thought because that line of thinking has never been important enough in my life to dwelling on. Make no mistake, every now and then I see some male specimen that stops me in my track and gets the groin and breasts all quivering and excited. Some men in my life do the same but they create the feeling with their actions and how they treat me. So it begs the question: do we all in this group suffer from unbalanced hormones and simply needed to learn how to bring them into balance. For many (such as myself) that has become far out of reach and I am quite content with my life as it has evolved. I always hated the male members on me in my youth and adulthood so had to do something about them. Which I did eventually. But could there have been some other path to follow with better understanding of the human body?

I am no where close to being as far along the road as you, but I do regularly lower my T using Androcur. When my T is at castrate level, my interest in castration and penectomy totally dwindle. It's only when I allow my T to rise that castration and penectomy ideation return. Mentally and emotionally I totally prefer myself castrated. T really does have such an impact on my mental and emotional being, I love the person I become when my T is so reduced. I am just not ready to take that step to become surgically castrated, backing out at the last moment both times I have arranged the surgery.

Wellesley (imported) wrote: Wed Oct 14, 2015 11:11 pm First a big thank you to the archive.

Without the archive I would have been lost a long time ago.

Help of the members before my surgeries and after was extremely important to me.

5 years on.

fairly good generally. Still on TRT. Down to 0.5mL of 125mgs every 2 weeks. That actually is not as bad as it was the last time I tried to reduce the rate in March of this year. So since August I have reduced it to every 2 weeks.

Otherwise not so bad. 37 years old so I am sure that the body begins to change more.

Congrats on your anniversary! You are on the right track. Do what you gotta do.

Cseriess (imported) wrote: Wed Jun 10, 2020 6:26 am I am no where close to being as far along the road as you, but I do regularly lower my T using Androcur. When my T is at castrate level, my interest in castration and penectomy totally dwindle. It's only when I allow my T to rise that castration and penectomy ideation return. Mentally and emotionally I totally prefer myself castrated. T really does have such an impact on my mental and emotional being, I love the person I become when my T is so reduced. I am just not ready to take that step to become surgically castrated, backing out at the last moment both times I have arranged the surgery.

Stick with the chemical castration. That seems to be working really well for you. If you are ever ready to have an orchiectomy then by all means go for it. Men SHOULD have a nice low T level. As I previously commented in another topic, it makes no sense for men to have lots of T in them. Does nothing but cause trouble.