InkedFutureNullo (imported) wrote: Thu Jul 30, 2015 12:28 pm i was clear with them that i did not identify as male, but i was "definitely not" female. i identify as neutrois, or third-gender, so it was ultimately more like MtN. Along with gender identity dysphoria itself, i stressed my dysmorphia particularly as it manifested toward the male-appearing genitals attached to me. i was open about incidents of attempted harm, both in terms of physical treatment and self-medication. Simultaneously with my consultations with doctors and therapists (and with their approval/cooperation), i weaned myself off of testosterone, as i had been TRT-dependent for several years. Eventually, i chose to go on low dose estrogen to correct for some of the problems zero-T can cause, while not creating any rapid feminizing changes. i still appear "on the street" as typically masculine, and intend for my gender expression to remain more or less unchanged in that sense. This was also in part due to the fact that erections really were becoming nothing more than reminders of what did not belong attached to me. As things stand (or not) right now, erections only happen when very intentionally created during intimacy---no more spontaneous occurances.

i was fortunate to find excellent referrals for the medical and psychiatric care related to my transition here in Seattle. After the orchiectomy is completed, yes, i will be seeking a penile inversion without full female-appearing reconstruction. That will require working with surgeons outside the local area.