Unlike most Cross-dressers i didn't start at an early age. I started around age 13. I had a sister 2 years older and a brother 5 years older but i wasn't close to either of them. Still i did manage to pinch my sisters clothes now and then. Oddly i wasn't into make up or wigs yet. At 18 i stopped dressing and met my future wife. At 23 we married. We had a great sex life until our daughter was born. Because of my wife poor health i had a vasectomy. It was a bad surgery and i had internal bleeding. They went back in and fixed it all. But i noticed a huge decline in my sex life. I had little desire. It took a while to get hard and keep it hard. If i climaxed it was only a small amount. Way less then what was normal. A couple of years later my wife died ( natural causes ) and i raised my daughter who is now grown with a family of her own. When she left home i tried dating women but i wasn't really into it. Then i tried cross-dressing again. This time going full out make-up, wigs, clothes , etc.

I really felt i found myself. My penis on the other hand seemed to get smaller ( i always was small at 5 inches hard at best ) but now it looks more like 3 inches hard.

Not complaining. I tried gay sex and found i enjoyed oral and really enjoyed anal. But oddly most guys seem to want a cross-dresser to be the top not the bottom person. I was a disappointment to them when i had a hard time getting and staying hard for them. After a few years i felt i was too old to dress convincingly and i felt out of place doing so in public. So i gave up dressing. But i do miss it a lot. These days i still make the guy rounds at a local bath house about once a month.

I know its only a matter of time before i won't be able to orgasm any more. I doubt i'll really miss it. In fact i really don't even care about my penis. I much prefer to please a man and have a man orgasm in my mouth or anally. When i was starting out dressing my mom was on menopause meds. I did steal some of her pills and tried them hoping they would alter my body. I doubt they did. So i never tried any meds when i became an adult dresser. Maybe at that time i should have. I'm not much into meds even when sick so i didn't. I am blessed with very small but real enough breasts i think came from losing some weight over the years. Somehow that part didn't lose weight. Because of my blotch vasectomy i don't want to have anything removed. Not into that kind of pain again. The second vasectomy was way more painful then the first one. So i imagine a penis or testicles removal would be also very painful. Anyway in spite of it all i am a happy person who does enjoy life. So now you know my life story. Comments are welcome Jac

Welcome jacb1951. It´s good having you here. I am a crossdresser too (and also a transgender) although I don´t do it so frequently. I crossdress with my partner for having sex mainly. I like be treated like woman in bed and in public. "Formally" I did start crossdressing some years ago, but when I was a pre-teeneger I did start to use make up and tried on some girl clothes in secret. I´ve just bought three dresses and some panties some days ago for model to my man. He loves looking me wearing sexy feminine clothes.

We are similar in this topic I suppose. Although I think I am a step futher because I´m on self-med with estradiol and spiro.

I wish you the best!

blessings!

Freddyde thank you for the welcome reply. I've met a lot of CD''s and TG's over the years. I think i'm a bit different then most

Most seem to start with make-up or both make-up and clothes. Where as I started just with clothes.

Most seem to stay a CD for life or purge back and forth with never straying to far from it.

I've been able to walk away from dressing for years at a time without going crazy.

Maybe its because I had family to care for and zero time for dressing during those time periods.

Plus back in my ill gotten youth there wasn't the support you see today doctors thought you were nuts, meds didn't exists or were risky, and forget about people support.

Now I can walk into any clothing store and buy clothes that fit me ( being 5.6 with a small penis does help ) And stores are now supportive.

I never got into the meds except when I stole my moms meds. ( I still feel guilty about that ) Too bad they don't have any OTC kind. I have a woman doctor who is very sweet and understanding. But I can't seem to find it in me to talk to her about being a CD or how I feel sexually. I'll give it some thought and let it happen as it should.

Everyone is unique. Just be yourself;) . If you feel comfortable of what you´re doing just go ahead!!:)

Hi Everyone! I will write later about myself ... I am happily married to my wife, we live under a common desire. I am feminized sissy.

She wrote a post in my condition:

http://forums.eunuch.org/entry.php?676- ... hed-inside

jacb1951: Happiness is always pounce on you, when you do not expect.