Hi guys, Why i find myself here!

[lostboy128 (imported)]

Hi guys

I was just over at a trans gender forum talking about some of these things and then took a look at this forum and found that there are probably more like minded people here and people sharing the

same feelings towards their genitals.

So here is my story so far. In 2004 i had an appendix operation, nerves were cut and my penis shrunk up for a long time damaging the tissue inside and effecting the sensory nerves for a while. i had a lot of pain in the tip

for a long time. My penis has just not been the same since. I went form having raging hard erections every morning and all the time to nothing. My penis feels rubbery and just like it is not part of my body any more. no morning erections no

erections at all. it feels like the shaft has lost its structure. doctors say there is nothing wrong but prior to this if i just sat in a warm bath the heat alone would give me an erection something i could

not control it just happened and i could not stop it even if i wanted to, now in the same situation its just shrunk up. i never have any night erections its just totally gone and i fail to see how they can say nothing is wrong but it appears

doctors don't have a clue what they are talking about when it comes to the penis.

I have lived with ED and an uncomfortable penis for so long now that all i know is being disturbed by my penis. it drives me crazy all day ever day this tight feeling never goes away and as

it has lost its structure and no longer plump i can't even tuck it in my underwear and it stay in place. The only real relief i get is when i tuck it between my legs and put pressure on it.

I have very high T and living with a sex drive and defunct penis has been an all out war for so long. I have taken hops to lower my t and that helps me but my body oder is so strong

and my beard needs shaving twice a day sometimes. I feel trapped by my male drive and penis its sometimes so overwhelming i feel like i am literally in hell on earth.

After erectile function has gone you start to realise just how controlled you are by hormones and this drive. It allows you to see how men are just a slave to sex. This has made me hate

male sexual function and if my penis came back to how it was i am not sure i would be happy or not. having a penis just does not feel right any more

The best the doctors have offered is a penis implant but that has never really appealed to me. Maybe i should go with but i have a real dislike for having a penis now and i cant really get

away from that feeling.

More and more i have been having the feelings that i want my penis turned into a vagina. I am not really of the mind that i want to be living as a woman, If i could be a full biological

woman then hell yes but my voice and face are clearly male and i quite like how i look. I would not mind looking half man half woman and i have dressed up as a woman and think that

despite having a male head it does not look odd. thats only to me being gender aware and very open minded about this stuff. what I really envy is how women are all tucked away and

there is nothing hanging out. If done right i should be able to get sexual pleasure that i currently cannot get. That said my one worry over this is the invasive nature of the operation and

having my testicles removed. Despite not liking the high sex drive i worry what would happen to my health if i did not have the testosterone and also the feeling of not having my balls.

I have thought about having my penis removed but i have numbed it with cream and really dislike when the head is totally numb hence the desire to have it inverted so the signals are still

coming form those nerves just in a different format.

It is a very strange place to be in as this really is not normal thinking. That said having total ed at the age of 20 is not really normal either and not being able

to ejaculate for so long is not really normal.

[Ernie of Maine (imported)]

:)Lostboy I think you should see a new doctor.Ernie

[lostboy128 (imported)]

:)Lostboy I think you should see a new doctor.Ernie

i have seen many, in what regards should i be seeing them i have seen urologists and psychologists nothing really changes anything

[Polygenitalious (imported)]

What you describe sounds more to me like wanting the body of a trans guy than the body of a woman. If you're a man, and it's your body, then by definition it is not "the body of a woman".