Just the other day while shopping at a small retail car audio business, I saw a copy of Playboy magazine laying on the counter. I hadn't looked at one in years. To my amazement, I discovered that the photos of nude women (with genitals showing) were completely uninteresting. In fact the entire magazine bored me. Wow! That would not have been my reaction before castration....

May I ask the other long-term eunuchs to comment? Is this typical?

I go a step further that if all of a sudden there is an image of male genitalia when I least expected it, it can be triggering. Of course it is tough to tell what comes from being abused to what comes from being a eunuch. Many years someone tried to choke me or hurt me with his penis. When I was flying home from a MoM I stopped into the restroom. A very attractive young Asian man flashed me with his erection. I almost ran through a wall to get away. I wonder if I react like women do when they are flashed.

I have no interest at looking at porn or magazines. When my levels were first dropping I felt a nausea if I thought about sex. Again was it no T or the other t trauma. See a cute guy and ready to vomit. I recently was surprised by a desire to be held when I do not like to be touched. Oh hell I am off topic.

Not off topic at all. Thank you tugon.

That is my reaction also - to run like H*** away from a sexual predator. But before castration - I would find myself compelled to join in... no matter how dangerous or unappealing the person or locale.

When I was newly castrated, I wanted to be tested by a professional to prove whether my compulsions were gone. But now, I have had enough real world experiences to know that I have achieved my goal of being asexual or even anti-sexual.

I too would need to say its working, I never think about sex, ever. As for playboy ? do they still publish them??? I have not seen one in 30 years or more.

River

You're supposed to read the articles.

Out of curiosity, do you feel the same way when you notice an attractive girl? I know porn images can "feel" detached from reality, but what about reality? Has all your sexual desire gone in that regard?

When i first got cut, i was using a compounding pharmacy for a Testosterone 'ointment' that did not work at all, and so for the first 7 months or so i had zero testosterone. Physically i could get somewhat hard if i really really worked at it and concentrated, but the idea was repellent. i had no desire whatsoever for physical contact, and even the slightest touching of hands while paying the clerk at the grocery store was irritating, and being held or hugged was so utterly uncomfortable. I went to injecting and everything turned around. Now my Dr. suggested i start half dosing as my levels were a bit high, and it's as if my sexual appetite is there if i want to pursue it, but i have to really engage.

That's interesting that you seemed to hate close contact or being touched, I wonder if many others have similar experiences.

When I first felt knew my levels were dropping I had the desire for affection more than ever before. My cravings for sex became cravings for affection. I even experienced this great affection for children and the wish for one. That desire lasted for four years and luckily I never acted upon it. All of a sudden one day the feeling was gone but the child would not have been. I attempted a relationship and was sexual but was once again being used. So as time has passed the greater need for affection has faded. The desire for human touch is gone. I am not sure if my lack of trust in others is part of the reason I do not want to be touched. Would T bring that back for me? Probably not. I am sure I would return to my out of control sexually addicted self.

Since I started my castration I have not seen porn again. It doesn´t seem so appealing anymore. Usually in the past I spent one, two or more hours watching porn on the computer EVERYDAY. Some way I felt obligated for a physicall satisfaction to do that. Now I spend ZERO hours on porn. Actually I´m more interested in documentaries, tv shows and series instead. Now, however I´ve begun to feel the need the love of a man in my life as never before. I have partner though, I would like that he doesn´t spend so much time focused on sex when we´re together. Unfortunately I know Isn´t possible. Definitely I´m more emotional and sensitive.