Now before anyone chimes in with a how dangerous this is I am well aware. It's just that my need for starting castration and hormones was extremely high. I was taking any and every drug I could to deal with myself and self harming between my legs, it was when I woke up covered in blood that I realised it had to stop. I started androcur and gave up all forms of drugs, cannabis was the main one.

I have been off drugs for over four years but I do still smoke ten cigarettes per day.

I have not found that smoking halters the effectiveness of androcur but I am beginning to think it does stop oestrogen? I do have results from oestrogen but am wanting better ones.

Has anyone here smoked while on hormones and then given up? What are your experiences?

I will add that giving up is something I will be doing within the next two months.

I realise how lucky I have been thus far and do not want to push my luck, clots, strokes and thickening of the blood do scare me and I really need to move on now and think more longer term.

Stopping living my life in the present because it's too painful to think about the future, I have an appointment at a gender clinic in the uk and it's time to taken responsibility of my own life x.

Thanks for reading x.

Smoking is bad for you, having said that a half pack a day is not that bad. Before I quit I was a 2 pack a day smoker and I was taking Androcur at the same time, my T levels dropped to zero and I was still smoking, of course I have quit both, thanks to a trip to Philly and a Zyban.

River