That it was time for the balls to go?

For me, mine was a unique situation, in that my testicles failed to drop as they are supposed to. I then spent my first 16 years as a visual eunuch. When they appeared they cause me great emotional as well as physical pain. My whole identity sort of shifted , and I hated it. I knew then that they did not belong there , at least for me.

Time passed and the poor condition of my testicles led to their return back into the inguinal canals where they stayed full time for years. While that was much more satisfactiory than seeing them, I still wanted them removed once and for all. In my mind I knew that I was NOT supposed to have them, they were foreign to my being. Some of that surely was related to my unique situation, but I can assure you that when the day came that they were removed, the relief in my mental state was amazing.

Each day I find that I revel in the body I have now, even with some of the dirty tricks that aging pulls. I do use HRT , so I can easily maintain my muscle and tone, and of course I am sexually active. There are differences in being a eunuch, some very subtle, others profound, but I relish all of them.

Raymar

I was 21 when I decided I wanted to do it. I did it when I was 22. Even though I wasted 6 months obtaining a therapist letter to end up being refused the procedure by this disaster of a doctor who gave me false information and lied to me. I am pretty sure he was very anti gay and stupid. I am glad he didn't do my orchie he probably would have done something wrong.

Then I finally decided to do it with Dr. Arnkoff and he did it for me no therapist letter or hormone usage required.

I wish I had went straight to him but he was a plane ride away from me so I was avoiding that at the beginning.

But I've felt like a female since I was 5.

...when I got arrested for having consensual sex with someone under the age of consent. In other words I discovered to my horror that I was a sexual predator.... I was living in a fantasy world where what you do is driven and fueled by Testosterone. When that world was shattered by being arrested, I was forced to look at my behavior and thinking in a very different light. Instinctively I knew that I needed to have my balls cut off, as that was the only way that I could be free from my T-driven fantasies that I was acting out. Unfortunately, it took me decades of searching and experimenting before I found the EA and ultimately Dr. Kimmel.

It was puberty for me. I never cared for my balls or dick. I wasn't wanting to be female either. I guess you could say I have eunuch gender dysphoria,

When trying to adjust my underwear, I yelped in pain - it felt like something involving hot skewers for just a moment - and realized that if that happened in traffic, I'd have steered into oncoming traffic or a telephone pole before I could possibly have figured out what had just happened to me.

I wonder if I burst a cyst?

Bonjour.J'étais moi même exhibitionniste hétérosexuel dés l'adolescence .Pour être tranquille avec mes pulsions impudiques,je voulais me faire enlever les testicules ,mais dans le même temps ,j'avais peur d'être ridicule et malade après être devenu eunuque .Ce n'est que des décennies après que j'ai eu le courage d'aller me les faire enlever .J'ai connu une période de dépressions assez intense ,puis peut a peut j'ai retrouvé mon équilibre .Aujourd'hui, je suis très heureux de ne plus être exposé aux sanctions légales .Je regrette simplement de n'avoir pas eu le courage de me faire castrer dés que j'ai ressenti ce besoin de devenir eunuque .Les gens a qui j'avais confié mon désir de castration m'avaient plus ou moins pris pour un imbécile .Ici, la castration est devenue interdite depuis l'apparition sur le marché des médicaments qui suppriment les pulsions sexuelles .Ces produits ne sont ,dit'on pas bons pour la santé ,alors que l'ablation des testicules n'a pas d'effet secondaire sur la santé .La castration ne doit pas faire l'affaire des pouvoir financiers ,ainsi que des services qui vivent des pervers sexuels ?

Bonjour Sortilege,

Finalement, l'être-humain est peu devant la puissance des gouvernements et des "pouvoirs financières". Notre société est qu'en même paradoxal ; d'un côté, elle te pousse à être toi-même, à vivre ton potentiel, etc... et quand nous débordons des normes, nous devenons des déviants... Il faut être soi-même mais tous pareils... pas trop différent... mais pas trop semblable non plus.

Étrange société ! Qui ne laisse pas les gens exprimer ce qu'ils sont... Je ne vois pas en quoi devenir Eunuque peut mettre en danger la société !

Attis

In my early twenties.

When I was mid teens. I have never liked them but never knew what to do, I didn’t and still don’t want to be a woman, just not a man either. There is a laundry list of things I have tried including asking several urologists to remove them. Answer is always a chuckle followed by, you don’t want that. Well, I do want THAT and am well on my way.