Greetings to all!:)

I would like to share with you my desire to castrate myself. I am 33 years old, I am single, my parents divorced when I was 6. I had a horrible childhood and I have rarely been happy. I am often depressed and occasionally have psychotic episodes. Looking for peace and salvation of this and hope that castration will reduce my self-aggression. I read in the Bible that if you can take to be a eunuch you should do it .

"For there are eunuchs who were born thus from their mother's womb, and there are eunuchs who were made eunuchs by men, and there are eunuchs who have made themselves eunuchs for the kingdom of heaven's sake. He who is able to accept it, let him accept it. "(Matthew 19:12)

I have had connection with women for a while, but sex gives me more problems than pleasure and I think I will have less care without marriage and children, and what follows from that. looking for a way to please God and not the people and their will. But I wonder will I do it because of hate or is it a well thought decision that will really benefit me and and my life ahead?! Madness is it or is it a wise decision, love and fear of God and love towards myself and a step to better life? Whoever has ideas and wants to answer me I will be happy

Hello, newcomer! As you can see here, there are many ways of achieving chemical or physical castration. I think that it is always wise to try chemical castration first. I think theoretically such medications should be licensed in Bulgaria, as antiandrogens and GnRH agonists are used mainly for the prostate cancer. But can be used for chemical castration otherwise, too However, unless you have some psychological indication you'll have hard time to acquire prescriptions. But I've met Romanians who claim it is possible to bribe pharmacists, well, probably you can in Bulgaria, too then Welcome anyway!

Welcome to the EA. Sadly no one can predict what castration would be like for someone else. Even for myself I am not who I thought I would be after castration. I thought I would be just me without a desire for sex. Instead I still have desires but the drive is not strong enough to make me want to act on those desires. I thought I would become more passive but I became more assertive.

As my hormonal levels were dropping I became much more emotional. Everything either made me sadder or happier. I wanted to adopt a child. All the emotions were intensifying while my sex drive was falling. I would spend time reading other's experience. Also consider chemical castration to better understand what life might be like post castration.

Proceed with caution. It was everything I wanted and for others a major life mistake. Good luck.

Welcome, take your time read and think about it all and ask questions. There many experienced, good people here.

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tugon (imported) wrote: Tue Apr 29, 2014 9:14 am . I thought I would be just me without a desire for sex. Instead I still have desires but the drive is not strong enough to make me want to act on those desires. I thought I would become more passive but I became more assertive.

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This is my experience too, despite being on a small dose of HRT post castration.