was born with with hypospadias which force me to sit to pee, Became very shy until i was 32 to when tried to kill my self over my deform penis and was forced to seek medical help. had surgery to fix the problem, opening is almost at tip with about 1/3 of foreskin left. know i can pee normal but know i still hate my penis for how it has ruin my life do not want it removed because i in joy hurt my penis.

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Welcome to the site. There are many folks visiting here that have the same issues, or very similar.

I know what you are going through. I was born with a penile deformity also. I sat to pee until I was about 6 years old.

I was never able to get any medical correction; just learned to live with it.

I fantasize about having a normal very small penis with no testicles.

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