My name is Leonard. Many of you know me on here as I have been lurking around this website for many years. I thought it was about time I finally introduced myself.

A little about myself. I am 31, (32 in January) I have been interested in castration since I was about 13 years old. When I was 13, I got into trouble with my much younger cousin. I was encouraged by my family to turn myself in to law enforcement. I was placed on probation and in therapy for 3 years. During the bad times my therapist used chemical castration as a threat to make me take things seriously. At the time I took it as a threat, but as time went on I thought more about it. I completed the conditions of my probation and graduated with flying colors. Even though I know that I'm not a danger to anyone, the experience left me with the deep seated feeling that my sex drive was this big ugly beast that I needed to keep a very tight leash on. To be free of the beast would be such a joy.

On to modern history. I met my wife in 2004. The love of my life. I truly didn't know how lost I was until I found her. She was 4 years younger than me and that made me feel so dirty that I almost called it quits. I'm glad I didn't. We got married in 2007. This year we had our fist child, and she is absolutely amazing.

How this relates to castration. Remember that when I was 13, I was introduced to the thought of castration. Well for the last 17 years the urge to pull the trigger has only gotten stronger. Shortly after meeting my wife I told her my whole story including the fact that I wanted to be castrated. It took a little while but once she was able to wrap her head round the concept, her only reply was "wait until after we have had kids then I will support you completely." Well we have had our first and we are planing to try for our second on our firsts one year birthday. Which isn't that far off.

Now here is were it gets complicated. I just started a new job. This job is exhausting. With the baby my wife and I have almost no time alone together. We talked about it, I expressed an interest in reducing my sex drive. She agrees that would be a good idea as long as I can get her pregnant when the time comes.

So here is what I have found and what I would like some help with.

Is there a form of chemical castration that I can take that I can start then stop taking and be able to father my next child. (I don't really care if I become infertile after that)

AndroEase and CalmCompanion: any information on if these work would be nice

Libidno: doesn't seem to be avalible any more. Did it work? Is it worth buying the book so I can learn to make it myself?

Depo Provera: Does it cause feminization?

Siterone: Sterility? If I take it for 7ish months can I stop and make a baby?

Thank you all for your help.

I ordered a bottle of Libidno a while back, tried it for a bit and felt no change, got really discouraged and depressed and stashed the rest of it somewhere that I can't for the life of me remember. There is an unfortunate lack of information around it on the internet, the little Googling I did before ordering didn't yield any non-troll comments. I'm curious to know what happened to it and why it isn't available anymore, is it lack of business?

Welcome to this lovely corner of the internet, and I hope you will find the information you seek.

Well, my wife cared for me through first right then left orchies, and has been supportive throughout. We were blessed with only one child - probably because the nuts were no good- but all the same it was important to try to do the kid thing and then prune the trouble. We would advise don't do anything against the having kids plan until you've done it, and all looks good.

I don't know of anything that actually works and also can do no harm.

Then, after kids, if you know it's what you want, enjoy being a eunuch, but get it done safely and professionally. It feels very good.