Over the last couple of weeks I have enjoyed reacquainting myself with this web site it has been several years since I have visited. I must say you folks have done an outstanding job of putting it together and keeping the forums from going off on a tangent. Everyone seems to understand and accept others even when they may disagree.

I experimented with chemical castration in my twenties for a brief period of time when I worked on a breeding farm. At the time I didn’t know what the results would be, that was over 40 years ago and there was no information readily available, no internet, the only computers there were lived in refrigerated filtered warehouses.

I actually did it on a dare, but then in those days I did a lot of things on a dare but luckily was never hurt. We gave shots of estrogen (at least that is what I think it was) to the jump mare as she was called to keep her in season through breeding season. Somehow the question came up, “What would happen if you gave these shots to a guy?” To make a long story short it was me with my pants down and the jump mare lined up to get shots every week that breeding season. And no I didn’t come into season.

I did after three or four weeks start to notice a difference that was creeping up on me. I wasn’t having constant thoughts of just about every kind of sex imaginable, walking around with an almost constant erection and masturbating three or more times a day. Plus my temper wasn’t nearly as short. By the end of about 12 weeks I had to be reminded of sex and realized I hadn’t had sexual thoughts, sex or even masturbated in weeks. And I didn’t care I had no desire. The best part was that my foul temper that seemed to popup all too often was gone. It was actually a very good time.

It wasn’t but probably another three for four weeks until breeding season was over and so were the shots for the jump mare and myself. My life goes on and slowly but surely my old self comes back.

My birth sex is male, I identify as male and I really do enjoy pleasing my wife but on occasion I also enjoy scenes with other men, even more so if I am being humiliated within a group. For the last seven years I have also lived off and on in chastity pleasing others although unable to achieve a complete erection or satisfaction myself when locked up. And most of the time I choose not to have an orgasm when free even with my wife.

At this time I am waiting for the supplies to arrive to try chemical castration again. If all goes well and I am able to achieve the calm and stability of years ago, in about six months I’ll be making an appointment to become what I think I want to be today. A boy with no balls.

Wrangler2c

Welcome back and I do not know about others but your avatar is a little too in my face.

Hi and welcome back. This site is great for people like us everyone understands and do not judge others so many are here to help.

Good luck from a happy eunuch

Thank you, Tugon and jako999

Welcome back or to the Archive,

River

Welcome back, and what an interesting experience. Best of luck with everything going forward.

Good to have you back. I enjoyed reading of your experience at the breeding farm. All good wishes for the future.

Welcome back.... and thanks for the support you poster on my other thread. I'll certainly be posting more as these last few days tick slowly by until my orchie....and details about my recovery and experience as a ball-less boy. If your wife would like to talk to mine about the experience and what it means to U/us, feel free to post to Her on here. Wwe share this profile. John

This is the other half of rab of MAC...please allow Me to introduce O/ourselves properly since you were kind enough to do the same. My name is Antoinette. I am an experienced Domme, and john's Mistress and Goddess. For many many years, john put his penis into every vagina that held still for a second, yet he was never satisfied. Funny how that happens, eh boys? It's a very different situation now. I know that for many, this is fantasy...a kink or fetish. There is nothing wrong with that. You'll never catch Me passing judgment on good solid fantasy..but that's not the case with U/us. I chemically castrated him...then I got a burdizzo, researched the best possible way to perform the act, and if it was going to work for anyone, it would have worked for U/us. Trust Me...it killed the balls and left them with no feeling, but they remain in the sack...heavy and dead, but just as "there" and unsightly as ever. So...in the quest for information, W/we found this site, and I'm grateful for it. There is very little out there, and so much IS fantasy. The more I've done in real life, the better I can see what is real, and what is not. I needed a surgeon..I needed safety. john begged Me to do this at home. Desperation is a dangerous thing...and I want to live with him for a very long time. I'm 37...he's 65. I want him two steps behind Me, not 6 feet under Me.

When you love someone...truly...then the best path is to grow and allow that person to be who he or she truly is, and that is how you get the best from him or her. I know that the best this for U/us is for john to be a eunuch, with his hormones completely in My control. his entire life, after all, is completely in My control...and has been since I placed a collar on him. I didn't collar a blind little sheep. I collared an intelligent and capable human. That means that this journey and life has met with some resistance, and his extreme eagerness is both what I love about him, and what would/could have taken him out of My life. Careful...planned...slow. That is the best advice I can offer. This is a life-altering event, not a game. So...it's very nice to get to know others who are a part of this beautiful thing, and thank you to all who share freely and honestly. I, and so many others, appreciate it. Knowledge is power.

Sincerely,

Mistress Antoinette

Thank you to all for your responses to my introduction, it is the true experience of my experimentation with chemical castration. I am looking forward to beginning again as an interim to being able have the little jewels removed.