Granted I take ritalin but it's a minimal dose, it has huge effects on my sleeping patterns(ive missed classes quite a bit)

Behaviour has improved and im no longer impulsive but

I need strategies with how to improve my school learning and related skills.

Im only taking 2 courses this term,tough as balls might I add, they are both semiconductor and AC circuits.(rest of peers handle 5-6 courses)

Im doing fine in AC with a whooping 98% on midterm and am caught up with class but semi im so far behind im not even joking.

I have a tutor this friday but even then i feel there is so much work to do to catch up that its now a matter of salvaging the grade. I entered with a 67% midterm and am 5 chapters behind everyone else.

The book is soo damn hard to read i often pass out on it.

Quite frankly faiing this it'll be the second time i do bad in semiconductors.

Like OMG a third repeat. Fuck my life.

My instructor knows im not stupid, and was the one who sent me to the college learning resource centre but im stumped cuz he asked whethr i was in the righ program. and that i should reconsider something else.

OMG im tired of this shitty game. I need to pass, i want to move out and live with a roomate and earn a modest living and now somebody is telling me to reconsider my options yet again.

\this is the third institution i enrolled in. I want to pass , I want out im too old to be living with my parents let alone my mom.

I feel sometimes im in this neverending trap. A caged fox unable to escape hir confined cell.

Im also afraid of the real world, the burden and expectations that comes ith it. especially deadlines.

I studied so hard to pass yet am I gonna be fired for missing deadlines?

I understnd why the employer would fire personel but omg am i condemned to a life of suffering

Back up there foxy.

If it's not too late you need to find something that you actually WANT to do. Not just something that sounds

good, like "Astronaut" or "Pope", but something that you look forward to learning about.

Why is AC circuits easier? Do you have some goal that lines up with these courses you're taking?

If you have to just drop out of the semiconductor class and take it by itself next year.

But, what do you do with your time? Do you have so much free time that you just put off studying and

figure you can catch up later.

And you sound to fearful, as if you've let your imagination run away. If employers can see that you're

working on a technical problem they'll be patient.

Break this issue down for us.

this is the longest program Ive been able to keep myself keen without getting Fbombs on my trascript. Inotherwords so far this is the best program ive been able to keep myself from failing so far but my grades are slipping gradually it seems and I really do put an effort into sustaining then at their highest when possible.

Yes I do have lots of free time. Most of it goes towards studying but remaining I often get so heavily distracted it's no joke.(Imnot exactly mentally sane per say)Though I do I think it's time to get a part time job and just simply deal with getting mediocre grades. and when possible strive for getting higher one's in subjects i show an affinity for and am actually good at.

To be honest I entered this program bc I do share a passion for electronics however at same time I love medicine. Medicine however is a field that would take me even longer to get into and initially I couldn't cope with it so I decided to enter a comunity college geared towards my other interest. That is that of a electronics technologist position.

I figured I could finish this shit and come back into medicine when i was both mentally prepared and economically ready for it.

The electronic technologist program im enrolled in is a super crunched 4 yr program condensed into a 2yr program where students on avg take 6-7 courses per term and the drop out rate is huge. Most don't make it.

I split the work load and even then some courses are hard as balls.

Naturally the chinese exchange students here can cope with those 6-7 courses per term and OMG how do they do it.They aren't human I tell you, they are literally machines!!!

I figured finishing this first would get me the heck out of my parents house and Id find a decent, not stupendous, career with which I could be content with living with a friend and be able to finally dettach myself from my mother.

I swear i'll go crazy if I have to start all over again into another program.

GET Prepared

Your late teens and early twenties will be a time of natural control of ADHD.

Then the demons come back. Steadily. Step by step. What short term memory.

Medication. Forget it.

Adapt your environment.

Moi

Born Into A Universe Not Of My Choosing

see this is the reason I intend to get a sweet vaporizer and smoke some good grass.

You and I Moi would finish a pound in no time.

Good for clearing the mind and brain cell regeneration.(in moderation of course)

Yes I will be ditching ritalin for natural alternatives.

Namely weed, more krill oil, reservatrol, etc.....

NB: should of posted this in weed world:D

I do have a worry currently. My sister seems to catch me most often and now since it was recorded in her camera . apparently I twitch my arm involuntarily. hmmm....

parkinsons indeed? Yikes

That works,

I adapted my environment to a Weed tolerant environment too.

moi621 (imported) wrote: Thu Mar 14, 2013 9:24 pm That works,

I adapted my environment to a Weed tolerant environment too.

Don't you think that is poor advice to give a young confused person?

Mac (imported) wrote: Thu Mar 14, 2013 9:54 pm Don't you think that is poor advice to give a young confused person?

For me, no. When I was 19-20, I was fucked. Freshly dropped out of first year university, had a shitty job, living at home.

My best friend, a guy 10 years older, was a self-assured, fairly successful, married dude who let me drop in and 'vent' regularly.

I was smoking a bit then already, and he gave me a safe place to get high, 'managed' me during a couple of wild-ass acid hits, and taught me when it's okay (and NOT okay) to smoke up. Oh yeah, and he taught me how to roll a PROPER, professional joint.

No lectures on how to study; no rants about staying in school; no "my way or the highway" bullshit. Just honest advice, good times, and a source of good weed.

It was HIS influence that got me back in school, graduating from a pressman course, and into a REALLY good job.

So actually, for some people, yes; it CAN be good advice to a young, "confused' person. Although most of them really hate being called that. Try telling any kid today they are just "young and confused" and they will rightly scream at you for a bit then walk away. What they are, is pissed off and overloaded with reality, but they DO want to succeed and WILL do so; however the world is way, WAY more different now compared to OUR youth, than the difference between any generation that came before us.

Get high, Foxy. Get fucking blasted, rock your socks clean off, party like it's 1999, blow it all out.

THEN study .

And you will pass. Maybe not this time, though. My best advice in this situation is do NOT freak out at the prospect of failure. Take a year off; get a job you don't utterly hate and hang out with friends for a semester or two, and then get back into it. LOTS of people take a year off of school; there is no shame in it.

And, remember; failure ALWAYS comes first.

- REJECTED by Decca Records for being to plain and using out-dated instruments: THE BEATLES.

- KICKED OFF the high school basketball team, he went home and cried in his room: MICHAEL JORDAN.

- Told, by his teacher, he was TOO STUPID to learn and should find work that used his personality: THOMAS EDISON.

- FIRED, because he "lacked imagination" and had "no original ideas": WALT DISNEY

- DEFEATED in 8 elections: ABRAHAM LINCOLN.

Don't fear failure .

Wow, these are all issues that I feel a connection to in one way or another. First about having a hard time dealing with the education industrial complex.... LOL. if you don't fit in the box they will try to put you in the can. This doesn't happen quite as much as it used to, but educational programs are still very much a kind of program.

The ADHD thing is just one of those things you are going to have to find a way to deal with. Fortunately it is well enough known that there are coping strategies. If your college institution offers any kind of help, my advice is take it. I am dyslexic and had a horrible time in college, especially with one class in particular. Far Easter Art History.... The textbook for the class was huge and it had all kinds of names from every language. I mean phuc, I can't spell in English. Man that book put me to sleep more times than i can remeber. I couldn't complain to the prof because she wrote the book. On the other hand she was the one that got me in touch with Kokua. They helped me by hiring people to take notes for me during lectures and by making sure I had extra time to complete my exams. I am so grateful to her.

About the idea of using pot to help you with your ADHD, I have no issues with what you do with the grey stuff between your ears. All I know is I get even more scatterbrained than I am on a normal day. So for me it wouldn't help. On the other hand, I have a friend who programs and has a tendency to overthink things, and pot slows him down just enough that he finds better solutions. So it works for him. I think of marihuana as a medicine, but like all medicines it's not the fix all for every problem and it doesn't work well for every person. My only advice is only use it if it is actually helping you, and not just feeling better about not doing well. That's the difference between a real solute and avoiding the problem. One is likely to help while the other is a good definition for addiction.... Sory for preaching

Back when I was in high school, I really used to smoke a lot of pot. In my case I was definitely avoiding dealing with my issues, but I had quite a few to deal with and I'm not sure i would have survived it all if I wasn't constantly stoned. After I took the GED and got out of high school I found I didn't need to get high any more. Then later I found I was actually able to learn things and do OK in college. All I needed was someone to point me in the right direction and some adjustment of my environment to level the playing field a bit. I managed to get in to the honors program for part of my time in college and I managed to graduate with distinction.

All I know is that if you keep trying, you will find a way. It may not be the way you or anyone else expected, but it will be a way forward.

im just a little bit discouraged with the proffesor who asked me a question whether this was right progrm for me?....I mean, hello same dude who gave me an A for calculus 1. I don't struggle with math, for most it does, but come semiconductors, I have trouble with it and may fail a second time. (btw it's hard as balls) and asks me wther i'm right for this program?

Told me here's industy, grabs a book(pretend that its the upcoming research paper) and gentle slams it on the desk, tells me future employer will ask me to research such and such topic and complete a report or prject by friday. And if you dont meet deadline on time your fired.

Like I mean I knew that but the way he did it kinda shrugged me off and discourage me with fear, of course im going to be pissed, and been feeling down. In a twisted way it was an insult.

Dunno if he was trying to help me, be a dick or both at the same time.

All I know is I'm realizing till now that college will be one end of my chapter in life thats hard.

Nope ain't game over yet. Insert coin to continue.....

Welcome to 16 bit hell