Hello, I'm new here, and I want to introduce myself. I think you might find me somewhat different from most participants.

I'm a single male, masculine by self-identity and manner, homosexual by attraction, exclusively solosexual by practice, and completely content in all of those parameters. I'm no longer young, but not nearly old. I'm very healthy, physically, mentally, spiritually, and sexually.

Therefore, it might seem odd that my mind has turned toward chemical castration. I've been curious about it for several years, and the more I've learned, the more eager and enthusiastic I've become. In the last few days, I have made the decision to go for it! My goal is the total extinction of my sexuality--zero libido, zero attraction, zero arousal, zero erection, zero stimulation, zero orgasm, zero ejaculation, and zero fertility...

...experimentally. ...temporarily. ...reversibly.

For me, chemical castration is not a trial run for the real thing. I have no desire (nor even fantasy) for surgical castration. I have no dislike for my physical or mental manhood. As a devoted and enthusiastic masturbator, I do not seek lost innocence or some theoretically purer state. I have no desire whatsoever for feminization, nor am I doing this for anyone else. What I want is the sheer experience of the counter-instinctive (and even taboo) state of eunuchism. An extra benefit will be the chance to have a second puberty as I emerge from that state. These experiences are among the most rare and profoundly mind-blowing journeys of sexual exploration that I can imagine taking. That's why I want them!

I have taken some challenging journeys of exploration in the past: I have accomplished several weeks of voluntary self-imposed chastity (without device or master) on multiple occasions. I got an elective adult circumcision (which I absolutely love) two years ago. I forced myself to make the transition from a body-modesty freak into a practicing nudist. I have most recently mastered the exquisite art of edging and orgasm denial. Yes, I've had my share of serial fetishes, and this is, admittedly, the next one.

A few months as a chemical eunuch will require me to sacrifice an awful lot of precious sexual pleasure, but I understand that I won't miss it in the least. What an unimaginable paradox! The way I look at it, life is too short to have vanilla every day, no matter how much one might love vanilla. These various explorations are my way of broadening my sex life without violating my moral code.

Right now, I'm still planning my pharmaceutical strategy, which will likely use a combination of cyproterone acetate and tamoxifen, plus calcium citrate and vitamin D. I'll be discussing that in the appropriate forum, and I'll start a thread to post my experiences as I go through my journey. I expect to order my meds from Vanuatu before the end of December, and I tentatively plan to begin taking them around mid to late January. I can hardly wait!

Thanks for reading. I hope that I wasn't too wordy.

At our age, the reversability of chemical castration isn't nearly as dramatic or fast as puberty.

I enjoyed the lack of body odor, but the hot flashes and difficulty of masturbation wasn't nearly pleasant.

6 orgasms a night at 60. But average one a night since my trial chemical experience.

Thanks for the reply, George. Are you saying that you did not recover full function after stopping the meds? Which meds, how long were you on them, and at what dosage?

Cimetadine (sp?) 250 mg every 12 hours..

Two weeks to hot flash when I stopped.

Return to performing was slow, and I don't know if its just age or what but I don't think I fully recovered.

The good thing is I now know that castration is a fantasy.

I've been playing with elastrator for nearly 50 years.

We are all different, yes, but we also have one thing in common, the desire to "try something else". I tried chemical castration in 2009 over a short period, primarily to fight stress. I was 63 then. I was advised to use injectable depo provera as it has a good reputation regarding possible damage to the liver. The effects were great, I lost libido, lost erections, was much less stressed. After 2 months I wanted to make sure the effects were temporarily and stopped the injections, it took a long time (estimated at 3 months) before I returned to "normal".

I use to hate injections, but had no other option than inject myself. Using small needles it is completely painless to my surprise. I was nervous the very first time, not any more.

A few months later, I missed the effects and decided to resume the injections. I injected over 7 months in 2010, then again 10 months in 2011. Note that chemical castration has some permanent effects, that is to say, the absence of erections over a long period causes some shrinking of the penis, the testicles which have not produced testosterone also get a bit smaller. Both penis and testicles never return to original size. When this happens you don't mind at all.

I never had hot flashes, only suffered some energy loss, I was lucky.

You can try chemical castration, I am sure you will enjoy it.

Early this year I decided to go for permanent effects, once and for all. I started injecting vodka in the balls, after 11 injections both sides, they are now much smaller and weaker, I have no more erections except occasionaly during the night. I decided to wait several weeks between shots to have a precise evaluation of the changes and let the balls heal from the trauma of the injections. I always injeted 1.5 to 2.5 cc, now I do not exceed 1.5cc of 80 proof vodka.

Inserting a needle in a testicle is harder then in a muscle, but I never had pain, I find the feeling of the liquid entering the nut very exciting.

Absolute hygiene is an obligation, always use a new syringe, have a shower before and after the shots, I always alternated sides, left first, then right one or two days later. A couple of times, the introduction of the needle was painful, in that case I always stopped and tried the next day. I place an elastic band around the the ball to make sure where I inject, always from the lower part of the sac.

I am not yet a eunuch, but i am on my way, have no libido, no erections, no frustration, I feel free.

Plese do not hesitate to ask for details.

Just wanted to say hi and good luck i missed out the chemical bit ive been a eunuch 11months now and love it and all it brings.

Thanks

Make sure you keep a look out for symptoms of depression. That's not uncommon with low or not testosterone.

Good Luck!!!

Did you choose circumcision to help stay in chastity, or?

No, I chose circumcision because I just wanted it. I've done several weeks at a time of self-imposed device-less chastity before and after my circumcision. I don't think circumcision status has any bearing on chastity, except for the relatively short time you have to lay off while healing. For me, chastity was primarily to see whether I had the self-discipline to pull it off, and only secondarily to see how it felt. Either you have (or build through trying) the self-discipline or you don't. If you need someone or something to lock you up, you're not doing chastity, you're having it done to you.

Well, I'm reporting back in to say that I've changed my mind! I've decided not to go through with temporary chemical castration. I was eager and enthusiastic about trying it; but, after long and hard weighing of all factors, I've decided that indulging this curiosity/fetish (which is all it would be for me) is not worth any risk to my health or my ongoing sexual prowess. This isn't to criticize anyone else who has done it, and you can call me "chicken" if you wish; but it's my decision to make. I'm still highly curious about what temporary eunuchism would be like, and if there were a quick and totally risk-free way to experience it, I'd go for it. When/if there's a way to switch ones sexuality off and on, instantly and with total safety, I'll be among the first in line to try it. In fact, I can think of reasons that such a product might be a big hit, even among members of the general male population. (There's a possible theme for a fiction story!) Until then, I'll be satisfied fantasizing what it would be like.