Basically I have difficulty falling asleep without masturbating. That is just one of many reasons I am ready to cut them off. Thank God I have a good quantity of Lidocaine. I cant afford the real surgery, so I am going to follow the methods used at www.orlive.tv, etc. make sure I get all of the testicle and epididymis out, then call the ambulance and get some real care, which, even though I cant afford, will finalize my care and bring me to healthiness.

Don't do that.

The ambulance might not make it in time before you bleed out.

You will end up in a psychiatric hospital for evaluation with a giant bill handed to you when they let you out.

There are medications that will shut down your sex drive and accomplish the same result.

That's not fast or sexy or impressive but it is effective.

An excessive amount of testosterone I found can drive you to do things that are not safe or wise.

Rush to your physician and get a testosterone level test.

If you have an excessive amount of T in your system your physician can prescribe something to help.

Testosterone is powerful, but do everything in your power to not let it make you do something to yourself that is unsafe, harmful, and potentially deadly.

It sounds to me that you are wanting to give up your addiction to masturbation for your unrecognized addiction to religion.

Yes, religion is an addiction! It's the one you couldn't wouldn't, shouldn't give up.

But the truth will set you free.

Anatomy and gravity are strong opponents when attempting to self-castrate. They will both encourage heavy bleeding as soon as you cut. Don't do it. Besides the risk for serious infection is just too likely.

I think you need to study and rethink your faith. If you look at the lives of the giants of Christianity you will see that they wrestled greatly with temptation. You do not become a great tennis player by playing without a net, there is no virtue in resisting a temptation you cannot feel. Chastity is no virtue for the sexless. To develop spiritual muscles you must use them. If you try to achieve virtue by eliminating temptation, you will eventually fail, because it will always find you, and you will not have the strength to resist. It is the child whose parents have shielded them from all temptation, who gets to college and goes the wildest. For these reasons, Origen one of the greatest of the early church fathers, was denied sainthood, because he took Matthew's advise that "If thy hand offend thee, cut it off," and castrated himself. You develop will by using it, not by coddling it.

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Uh, that link shows up as being for sale?

I have to agree, I wouldn't attempt to do it myself.

However, and I say this in jest, if you are set on doing it, do it just outside the ER doors!

(Which will still get you 3 days or so in the psych ward, I'm sure!)

You´re fighting against a human male´s nature.

Masturbating is normal behaviour of a man.

It´s nothing wrong about it.

And, it´s not against God´s will.

If you´re jewish or even christian you aren´t even allowed to get castrated.

So, you can say, castration is against God´s will.

For an orthodox jewish or christian it isn´t even allowed, to have their male animals castrated.

If you want to follow those religious rules, you have to stay as uncut male.

Even there ist a strong desire of masturbating.

If you don´t do this in public, it doesn´t matter.

It´s nothing wrong about it.

Please read YodaNell's blogs: http://www.eunuch.org/forums/showthread ... highlight=

Yoda Nell is a Christian who removed his genitals. Also, you could ask your doctor for chemical castration, which would help relieve your desires and prepare you for the future.

I agree with most everything everyone has said. If you do it yourself, you could risk death and if you DO make it to the ER, you'll be in a psych ward until they think you are ready to be released. I am a Christian also and I still have my testicles and therefore my sex drive. My gut hunch is that other issues are involved in this too.