Long time thoughts about this but new to the board. I wish I had known about this 20 years ago. Anyways . . .

I like having a penis but to be honest I would be thrilled if I woke up tomorrow completely female. Emotionally, I could handle waking up tomorrow casrated (smooth of course) with a nice rack but if the board teaches one thing, its to ease into it. Reading on the board (and I read both stickys), I'm 100% sure that I'll go the chemical way for a while and I think androcur. Is there any advantage to depo? Also, what is the best way to slowly feminize? It would shock my kid (12 years old) if I walked in with boobs all of the sudden.

I also have been (honestly) having epididymitis off and on for a few years on one side predominately. Would a doctor ever use this as an excuse to cut one off? Could this translate into a hormone therapy that would lower my T? Any possibility that a treatment for chronic epididymitis would make it plausable to the (non-medical) people in my life that my hormones are out of wack now and so I'm an A-cup?

Hmm, you seem to be in a unique transitory state of being. You might best start with a psychologist, schedule an appointment with a female psychologist and allow her to understand you, females are best usually, in my opinion. Be completely honest, share everything. I recommend this because where you seem to be headed is going to be difficult for many reasons, not that you shouldn't pursue things, but if you have a 12 yr old, your transition will definitely affect him/her. However, kids are mostly able to deal with and absorb problems and changes that come into their lives, such as the changes that will come if and when you transition from male to female. I'm not Transgendered so I'm not the best one to advise you about transitioning. I am castrated and that alone might be all you need. I just read in the last few days that sometimes those who initially desire to change sexes, sometimes have a change of heart once they're castrated. Wish I could remember where I read that? Help anyone? And if I've offended anyone from the TG community, I meant not too and apologize if I did in advance.

Saintcut,I totaly understand how you feel. I would be thrilled if woke up to find myself completely female too.I have often thought I could be happy with only having my male genitals changed it to female,I have heard that it can be done in thailand.

I think trying chemical castration is a very wise choice.

Hash,I too have read some where that some transgender that once castrated are content with the outcome and decided not to change sexes,Like you I don't remeber where I read it.

Your statement didn't offend me. What works and is right for one transgenderd maybe diferent to one other. If being eunuch and or a nullo is all the further a transgender needs for a transition to make them fill happy, I think it's great!

This maybe my first post, but I have lurked here for years. Reading the Eunuch Archives has been very helpful in understanding what I'm feeling.

Thanks!

So for what I'm looking for - the chemical cut with slight (if any) feminization - is there any difference between androcur and depo? And I ordered the siterone today to get started.