Matthew 19:12 (imported) wrote: Wed Mar 21, 2012 2:58 pm
The psychosexual psychiatrist is considering writing a letter to a surgeon to give the go ahead with an orchiectomy, and he prescribed me depo provera, so i wont need to order it from inhouse anymore. The urologist also seemed very hopeful. Only thing that worried me, he said eunuchs have a high risk of developing dementia, and also havinh heart attacks, which i never knew. Yet there are eunuchs on this forum, above 60 years old, that seem very mentally functional, and not with dementia.
Not having a Master's Degree or Doctorate, I can only reply in ordinary language and from my own personal eperiences.
When my testosterone level quickly dropped I experienced unpleasant mental, emotional and physical consequences.
Could not concentrate or stay focused on anything; got very confused over little things.
Experienced some depression which was a new experience for me.
Got very very tired and weak and saw visible reduction in muscles.
Impossible for me to say what the invisible medical consequences were / are, such as the beginnings of osteporosis or ?
It has been 2 years now since that initial drop in testosterone, which I intentionally brought on via Siterone.
A lot of ups and downs since then, but, having eventually caused my testes to stop producing testosterone via alcohol injections, I am now stabilized on a very low dose of HRT to keep my T level somewhere around 150 or so, and it surely fluctuates as I am not all that regular with application - I get busy or forget.
Were I to do it again, or if I were to go from normal T to surgical castration, I would embark on a program that would lower my T very very slowly, over at least a year. I have no medical evidence that this would help prevent or minimize the feelings and experiences I got with Siterone. I just suspect that rapid or sudden loss of testosterone may cause such a disruption in one hormone, which affects other hormones, that it creates what I call Testosterone Withdrawal Symptoms. TWS.
But a slow reduction in T gives other hormones time to adapt and gives the mind, emotions and body time to adapt. Maybe. Just an idea.
In the long run it would be personal choice (impacted of course by insurance and bank account) if one wants to use HRT after loss of normal testosterone production, and how much to use. I have finally adopted 1/4 of a dose of prescribed HRT per day, and sometimes I go a day or more using none. When I start to feel the effects of using none, I start up again. Kind of reminds me of an old old advertisement for hair cream: A Little Dab Will Do Ya. I think that was an ad for Brylcream, really gunky stuff. Anyway a little dab of HRT does me.
More than likely what we put into our stomachs (food and drink) will have more impact on the heart than having or not having testosterone.
People perpetuate careers conducting government funded studies and then publish the results in language that can be understood only if you have a brain clot.
I understand what I have experiended, and do my best to convey that in words, which really can not convey feelings or emotions.
You have to look at what everyone says in the EA, or web, with a degree of caution, but eventually when you start to see a common thread from a variety of people in a variety of sites it can be an indication of a trend that may be true, for them, but still not necessarily for you.
Life is a roller coaster, but not like one at the amusement park. Those always come back to the same place. Life's roller coaster never returns and its destination is unknown. You either get in the car and move forward, or stay on the platform and watch everyone else go for a ride. Life is a constant battle between that within us that creates our fears and throws up walls, and another part of us that wants to be free and be ourselves. Once we stop looking at who we are not, and stop balking at doing things and just start doing things we are on the path of progress of not knowing who we are to being who we are. Too much introspection inhibits progress. Decide on what you really want, know you want it, make a plan of steps to get it, and then proceed with the plan, altering it along the way as needed. Just make sure that what you want is in your best interest, and if it affects others, in their best interest too.
And you can not think too much about what others think of what you decide you want. For no matter what you decide you want, even if you want nothing, there will be a limitless number of people who will think what you want (or don't want) is silly, odd, crazy, stupid, dangerous, dumb.
Like the guy who climbs up vertical rock mountains with no equipment.