Now here's the part I'm wrestling with. I used to be very sexually active (we have six kids). I still sometimes get really strong sex urges. Sometimes I'll catch myself sneaking off by myself & watching porn which goes against me trying to have a closer walk with God & screws up my relationship with my wife. Quite often I'll catch myself fantasizing about wild sexual escapades with my wife which if enacted would be out of bounds too.
A little background on me and my wife. We're both almost 50. I've been diagnosed with Bi-Polar disorder, depression (mild), & Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. I'm on a couple of psyc meds (one is a SSRI, Google it) that are notorious for blocking testosterone production. When I had my T-levels checked 4 months ago I don't remember the exact readout of my test but I remember it was lower than most people here that are on chemical castration meds.
As far as my wife goes she too is on Bipolar & Anti-Depressant meds which absolutely kills her sex drive. As for her she really don't miss having sex now.
I'm tentatively scheduled to go in for Gastric Bypass (Bariatric) surgery around March 19th. My goal is to lose about 250 pounds in the first year (Yes! I am a BIG guy). One thing I learned in the classes you have to take before you can have Gastric Bypass surgery is that when you start rapidly losing weight your hormones go bonkers! This really has me concerned. If my body reacts like it's suppose to after the surgery my T-levels could start rising again. On one hand this could be good and on another hand this could be really bad. I'm betting on the bad side!
I do have a sympathetic endocrinologist and we've already discussed this a little bit. His word to me is that if my T-levels start coming back up like they're suppose to and if they do it at a slow pace I "might" be OK. It's the "might" part that scares me. He told me if my T-levels would become a problem that he would start me on Lupron which he said is some really good stuff.
One problem that I have with going that route is that for the first 30 days Lupron is infamous for raising your T-levels before it kills it off. That part really, really scares me! I had my blood work checked again yesterday and one of the things that I had checked was my T-levels to make sure their still down. What I'm seriously considering doing is as soon as my T-level test results come in making an appointment with my endocrinologist and ask for a little sympathy and see if he won't start me on Lupron before my surgery at least on perhaps a lower dosage so that after the surgery when my hormones go bonkers I'm ahead of the game.
I don't know. Like I said I've really been doing pretty good with my low T-levels but there's still something inside of me that keeps getting stirred up. That's what I'm wrestling with.
I'll be anxiously awaiting your comments, feedback, and words of wisdom!
Thanks!
