New guy to the site!

[williambl (imported)]

Hi everyone. I am new to the site so wanted to say hello and tell why I came here. For many years I fantasized about being castrated but kept my castration fantasy to myself. Now that I am divorced I have lost interest in dating and such. And now my castration fantasy is becoming an obsession. It is to the point where I find myself strongly desiring to be castrated and at times I am getting frustrated by not getting them things removed. My desire has progressed beyond fantasy. Still I don't want to make a decision I may regret later. I am considering chemical castration to begin but am unsure how to begin.

I have considered going the DP route but without a doctor. I think this route would be a poor decision without a doctors supervision yet I am extremely uncomfortable bringing this up with my family doctor. How does one find a doctor more open to the idea? And what about the insurance, would DP be covered and would the insurance companies know?

Many questions. At times I feel I am close to busting at the seams and just want it done so any suggestions, ideas and such would be greatly appreciated.

Thanks...patiently impatient!