tugon (imported) wrote: Thu Jun 02, 2011 6:23 am
Daniel welcome to the Eunuch Archive. When you talk about your sex drive it sounds typical of a young man at his sexual peak. I of course do not know how much trouble it is causing you or if you are harming others. I think you might want to uncover why your sex drive is out of control.
Some who have used chemical castration have found some of the effects to be permanent after a prolonged period of use. Before you start anything read "Consequences of Castration". You can find it using the search feature. I am using my iPhone so I cannot include a link.
As far as being Christian I think Christians do have sex. I think about my
negative views toward sex and relationships and wonder what has caused yours.
Good luck in your search and finding happiness.
http://jcem.endojournals.org/content/84/12/4324.full <--is this it?
I am not harming others if we're talking about rape or molestation or anything like that. I just have a hard time distinguishing sex and love. I love cuddling with women for whom I have affection, massaging them, playing with their hair, messing around and being goofy, etc. But my sex drive is so strong that it hijacks these nobler impulses and insists on its own way. I find it extremely difficult to discern selfish motives from authentic love, because my craving for sex is so intense.
I believe part of the problem is that I have pretty brittle self-esteem. I was diagnosed with ADHD in preschool and expelled, though recognized as highly intelligent. I was frequently ridiculed by others for my quirks, absent-mindedness, difficulty in completing simple tasks correctly, clumsiness, etc. I'm a stereotypical nerd. Apart from a girlfriend I had in middle school, I know that I can never have a normal, romantic relationship. I have a good social life and friends whom I love, which is enough for me.
Even long before I became fully conscious of my limitations, however, I was deeply disturbed and distressed by the intensity of my sex drive during my teen years. I ended up on SSRIs and very much enjoyed the dampening of the libido that attended it. With few exceptions, real sexual satisfaction is a pretty rare jewel. I know, however, that even if I had access to unlimited sex, my passions would become more and more inflamed and I would eventually end up where I am now. I don't want bondage to this craving anymore.
Where do your negative views on sexuality come from?
Thanks for your help btw
