Yesterday, for the first time in many years, I decided to go swimming at a local YMCA. I entered the male locker room not really thinking about how different I was down below because its been the new normal for me for many years. However, absent minded as I was, I was shocked and stunned by what I saw, huge sacks and balls. I felt totally out of place and waited until almost everyone had left before I put on my trunks. I didn't feel comfortable with these guys and that's when I realized, "I'm not male anymore, not really." My penis didn't compare at all with what I saw, and really I wasn't looking initially, but when two guys walked by naked, it shocked me back to reality, their hardware looked huge. Compared to them I had nothing, certainly no balls at all and my shrunken little member barely peaked out. I didn't feel embarrassed, I felt out of place, it was strange. Now I'm glad I'm castrated, but the revelation was complete, the effects castration has had on me remove me from the male fellowship. I didn't even swim, not that I was embarrassed, I was? Reflective? So I left realizing that now I'd fit better in the women's locker room, but I knew they wouldn't let me in either, I still look too masculine on the outside. Now if I could just find the eunuch locker room!

Your thoughts seem to confirm that being a eunuch is indeed the third sex. I have always felt "unmale" not male, but certainly not a female either, do you feel that way?

Yes I do in a calm sort of way.

River

One of the reasons for my castration was I no longer wanted to be male. I was not very comfortable as a male with all that T in my system. The last 13 years have been the best.

I walked into the lockerroom at the hospital to change into scrubs. A masculine young man came in to change and I watched him in awe. He seemed so comfortable in his skin. It was obvious that his mind matched his body. I found myself wondering what it would be like to be male. I realized at that time I have never felt male.

When I go swimming I wear a bikini so I dont get stares, im not imbarrised I just dont want to draw attention to myself. I feel the same way just nothing there, I fit in better with the girls.

XxEunuchEmoBoyxX (imported) wrote: Sat May 21, 2011 6:22 am When I go swimming I wear a bikini so I dont get stares

Where you swim, do most of the other people swim in the nude?

I have felt as Hash has for years. That is why I would like whats left of my genitals removed so my body matches how my mind sees myself, not male,not female but no sex.

curious_guy (imported) wrote: Sat May 21, 2011 6:30 am Where you swim, do most of the other people swim in the nude?

At the beach or swimming pool. People dont go nude where iv been.

Milkman (imported) wrote: Sat May 21, 2011 4:12 am Your thoughts seem to confirm that being a eunuch is indeed the third sex. I have always felt "unmale" not male, but certainly not

feedback (imported) wrote: Sat May 21, 2011 7:02 am a female either, do you feel that way?

I have felt as Hash has for years. That is why I would like whats left of my genitals removed so my body matches h

ow my mind sees myself, not male,not female but no sex.

Yeah...asexual, like me.

If you feel uncortable in the male locker room, why not take estrogen and present as female. Then you could use the female locker room, descretly!