The New Me
Posted: Wed Mar 09, 2011 5:56 am
I had created a blog two years ago that documented my intense lifelong castration craving, and included detailed documentation on use of siterone. But that blog disappeared.
Then I created a new blog that documented my activities in the past year. Activities that were directed towards permanently eliminating testosterone from my body factory.
The whole ordeal was lengthy, emotionally draining, frustrating, dangerous, but ultimately successful.
I now embark upon The New Me.
Though not surgically castrated, I have successfully enabled my body to cease testosterone production.
I was quite surprised at how rapidly my interest in, need for, and ability for sex diminished. It has been like rapidly releasing pressure from within a container.
The New Me is now looking at me, myself, I, others, and the whole world and the rest of my life without being encumbered with sexual needs, wants, thoughts, or abilities.
However I will be going through a 3 to 6 month experimental phase of adding artificial testosterone to my body so that I can establish a new baseline that helps to minimize the negative effects of low T, without re-establishing the negative effects of a T level that is too high.
I am at an point that I have sought for a long time. It is hard to believe I have finally reached the final phase. I now control my testosterone level instead of it controlling me.
A true new lease on life. Most who have testosterone flowing through their veins will be unable to comprehend such thoughts, needs or actions. They are controlled by a powerful addictive hormone that has taken hundreds of millions of years to develop. Nature seeks survival of the species and takes control of mind and body in its quest of that goal. For unknown reasons I was born to prefer male/male relationships and also had a lifelong craving for a non-sexual lifestyle. Unfortunately society was not capable of understanding my needs. Fortunately society is coming around and has accepted such things as vasectomy, sperm banks, egg banks, artificial insemination and surrogate mothers. So it is conceivable that some day society will understand that choosing to minimize the testosterone in one's body is a rational, reasonable, and accepted choice. Complete elimination of testosterone has health risks associated with it, and taking currently available drugs to suppress useable testosterone has some serious side effects. So far, surgical castration, plus supplemental artificial testosterone for health maintenance, appears to be the most practical choice.
This low T phase of my life has minimized my intense craving for surgical castration. Nevertheless should castration be medically necessary or an optional elective, I look forward to completing that process; but at least I am not living in a constant state of frustration about not being able to have surgical castration. If it is eventually done, I will opt to have artificial replacements inserted. I would prefer to remain a male who is visually, if not functionally, complete.
Watch my blog for my ongoing transition to The New Me.
Then I created a new blog that documented my activities in the past year. Activities that were directed towards permanently eliminating testosterone from my body factory.
The whole ordeal was lengthy, emotionally draining, frustrating, dangerous, but ultimately successful.
I now embark upon The New Me.
Though not surgically castrated, I have successfully enabled my body to cease testosterone production.
I was quite surprised at how rapidly my interest in, need for, and ability for sex diminished. It has been like rapidly releasing pressure from within a container.
The New Me is now looking at me, myself, I, others, and the whole world and the rest of my life without being encumbered with sexual needs, wants, thoughts, or abilities.
However I will be going through a 3 to 6 month experimental phase of adding artificial testosterone to my body so that I can establish a new baseline that helps to minimize the negative effects of low T, without re-establishing the negative effects of a T level that is too high.
I am at an point that I have sought for a long time. It is hard to believe I have finally reached the final phase. I now control my testosterone level instead of it controlling me.
A true new lease on life. Most who have testosterone flowing through their veins will be unable to comprehend such thoughts, needs or actions. They are controlled by a powerful addictive hormone that has taken hundreds of millions of years to develop. Nature seeks survival of the species and takes control of mind and body in its quest of that goal. For unknown reasons I was born to prefer male/male relationships and also had a lifelong craving for a non-sexual lifestyle. Unfortunately society was not capable of understanding my needs. Fortunately society is coming around and has accepted such things as vasectomy, sperm banks, egg banks, artificial insemination and surrogate mothers. So it is conceivable that some day society will understand that choosing to minimize the testosterone in one's body is a rational, reasonable, and accepted choice. Complete elimination of testosterone has health risks associated with it, and taking currently available drugs to suppress useable testosterone has some serious side effects. So far, surgical castration, plus supplemental artificial testosterone for health maintenance, appears to be the most practical choice.
This low T phase of my life has minimized my intense craving for surgical castration. Nevertheless should castration be medically necessary or an optional elective, I look forward to completing that process; but at least I am not living in a constant state of frustration about not being able to have surgical castration. If it is eventually done, I will opt to have artificial replacements inserted. I would prefer to remain a male who is visually, if not functionally, complete.
Watch my blog for my ongoing transition to The New Me.