As a slave, I feel that my only goal in life now is to service my Master and ensure his needs and desires are met. Master is not a sadistic pain Master and I am not a pain slave; we have more in common than not at this point. My ultimate goal is to become a full nullo, but that won't happen for a long time. My first step in that direction is to become a eunuch. Without testicles, I will not be able to produce sperm and my sex drive (as it is) should be dampened significantly.
After living as a eunuch for a time, I may wish to take the next, final step to become a nullo, by undergoing a complete penectomy.
The thought of having no genitals is highly erotic to me. I also think that being "smooth down there" will finally free my mind and body from the sexual temptations and urges I have now...focusing instead on serving my Master completely, without regard for any sexual desires I currently have.A true slave does not need genitals. The slave has no rights to his own pleasure, except for what his Master allows him to have. I will still have sex with other guys...but as a complete transgendered male; a fully submissive slave. I will serve my Master sexually by having him perform anal sex on me and with me providing oral sex to him and anyone Master chooses for me. And this makes me happy.
I am not a fem, nor am I butch. My only female traits would involve being smooth "down there", having to sit to pee, and probably developing rounded hips like a female, smoother skin, and maybe even slightly bigger breasts. None of this would bother me in the least.
I guess what I am now looking for is not only some emotional support from like-minded people, but perhaps some advice on how to get started down this path...without having to see a myriad of doctors or "shrinks".