This is actually my 2nd post. I began alcohol injections into my testicles tonight and was so excited to finally be making this permanent that I decided to quit lurking and start posting!

The concept of getting castrated popped into my head many years ago while deployed aboard ship in the Navy. I had and still do have, an extremely high sex drive. I masturbated daily since I was 15 or so. (Now 48) I noticed when I went out on the ship that due to risk of getting caught, I did not masturbate as much, and that in fact if out at sea for a long period, I would stop masturbating and fantasizing about sex. This was a wonderful feeling! I then began thinking about ways to make it permanent. Castration was obvious, but I figured there may be other ways. After doing tons of research, I decided to try Androcur. Of course, like many, I did this without talking to my wife. Like many non sexual people, she cannot relate and was horrified when I told her about my using Androcur. (It had the typical effects: impotence, inability to ejaculate, no sex drive.) I loved it! Sex was fine, she did not even notice that we did not have intercourse as I easily satisfied her orally)

Shortly after this, we decided to try a period of celibacy. 6 months minimum, then reevaluate every six months. During this period, I brought up that I would like to get rid of my sex drive permanently. We decided to try some things to reduce my drive before going down the chemical / physical castration route.

I tried herbal remedies (Androease) no change, I talked to my relatively open minded doctor and got several different SSRI prescriptions in an attempt to find one that would squelch my drive without making me feel like a zombie. I have to admit, for many years, I chose zombie over sex drive! I would long ago have gone back on Androcur for a longer trial (to satisfy her) if a hassle free orchectomy option existed.

I then discovered the thread on alcohol injection. That got me thinking. Long story short is that I am back in stealth mode. I am doing this for me, so be damned. I have waited long enough! My hope is, like others, to kill them, then get them removed. At a minimum, kill them. She will not understand me doing this outside the medical community. Well, so be it. She is not the one with the sex drive that is driving her crazy.

I do have to say that she repeatedly says if this (castration) is what I want and it makes me happy, she will support me. She is just extremely, extremely reluctant to proceed without professional medicine involved. She just does not understand that it is not easy to get castrated. I refuse to participate in a bunch of evaluations for some quack to decide whether I should have a part of my body removed when women can easily get the equivalent procedure done simply by asking. Screw them. My opinion: If you put someone on a chemical castration protocol, if they don't like it, they will stop of their own accord and chalk it up to a cool fantasy only. If they do like it and live that way for 2 - 3 years, chop 'em off, be done with it already.

Well, done with the rant. I am happy to finally get started. Will post periodically if anyone is interested in my progress.

cw1911nr (imported) wrote: Sat Feb 12, 2011 9:18 pm I do have to say that she repeatedly says if this (castration) is what I want and it makes me happy, she will support me. She is just extremely, extremely reluctant to proceed without professional medicine involved.

When I first broached the subject of lowering my libido, my wife suggested speaking with our family doctor. But I told her that that wouldn't work and that I had to do it on my own.

She already had gone through menopause and was very supportive of my attempts to lower my sex drive but didn't want to talk about it all that often. She never asked for details. After trying herbs that didn't work, I eventually switched to Androcur, telling her that evenually the results would be permanent and that ultimately I may have to be castrated. She was OK with it. I completed a serious of alcohol injections, which seems to have done the trick. Now I am waiting for the opportunity to have them removed.

My wife no longer feels obligated to have sex with me. She's happy and so am I with the results so far.

My wife was pretty resistant until I mentioned in passing that castration was the same thing as getting ones ovaries removed. It is a cultural thing that makes it OK for a woman, but taboo for a man. She is smart, it was a logical comment, she thought for a moment, grunted, and said that makes sense. I followed with the question, Could you live with a castrated man? She thought some more, finally said yes. If it made me happy, she is OK with it. She is still stuck on the doctor thing though. I hate doctors in general, so what the hell. Alcohol injections it is.....

I bet you are quite happy without your drive. Having both partners as close as possible to being in sync takes the relationship to another place. I noticed long ago that my wife, who does enjoy sex when it occurs, by the way, but otherwise never thinks of it, was the content one! I was the one who was wasting untold hours of time looking at porn, masturbating, scheming for sex and never being satisfied..... Once I realized that one can never be satisfied, I began to think why bother. I have made huge gains, but every so often the urges bubble up with a vengeance. I am just tired of it.

Congratulations on your success. What is your plan for getting them out? What condition are they in now?

cw

Yes, much of my time at night was spent scheming for more sex from my wife. I had a lot of them.

Now I am at the point where I can take it or leave it. It is still nice on those rare occasions but I'm no longer begging or getting angry when its denied. When she says ,"No, I'm not in the mood tonight" or "we'll see", as she does when I ask her, its OK. It's no longer a big deal for me and the thought of sex is quickly gone.

My testicles are small and atrophied and they have retracted into my abdomen. There is no real reason to have them removed as far as I can see but its something that I still want to have done. I have to wait until my next checkup, when I hope that they are discovered like this, unless something develops with them beforehand.

unencumbered (imported) wrote: Mon Feb 14, 2011 2:05 pm Yes, much of my time at night was spent scheming for more sex from my wife. I had a lot of them.

Now I am at the point where I can take it or leave it. It is still nice on those rare occasions but I'm no longer begging or getting angry when its denied.

That is me too, I am much happier without mine.

Sex has been so much of a distraction for so much of my life. It would be great if I only wanted it occasionally or not at all!