plix (imported) wrote: Wed Nov 24, 2010 7:54 pm
Lately I've been experiencing extreme difficulty with making decisions. This extends to decisions as simple as what I want for lunch. I've never been overly good at making snap decisions, but it seems to be especially bad lately. I would imagine it is possible the hormonal changes I am undergoing are playing a role.
When I experienced a sudden drop in testosterone I experienced the same extreme difficulty with concentration, making decisions, being interested in doing anything.
I think it was the large sudden drop in T that caused these feelings, at least in my case.
Dr. prescribed TRT for me which brought me back to "life", I regained my strength, concentration, and decision making abilities.
I slowly decreased the TRT, then started Siterone.
All of this took a couple of years.
During that 2 years my T level slowly kept going up and down as I experimented with different options, until it finally got so low that I stopped using siterone. I engaged in another T lowering technique that I won't go into here as it is too risky to suggest and I don't want to be the source of information that someone might use and harm themselves.
Now I am taking a little TRT just to maintain a T level of about 150. Just enough to avoid sexual desires and performance and hopefully avoid osteporosis or other low T issues.
It's an odd trade off really. The cost of TRT is about the cost of siterone.
In the beginning I could not maintain a low T level without siterone.
Now I can't maintain a minimal T level without TRT.
But I like it better this way. Siterone had liver issues and there are no significant negative side effects of TRT.
I have clarity of mind, making decisions is good, though I am a little tired and weak....a small price to pay for finally eliminating sexual desire and performance and all the tension and anxiety that comes with that.
I now know from personal experience that I am in control of my body and mind instead of my hormones being in control. Until you eliminate the need for sex that is built into you by nature, you are unlikely to achieve maximum peace and harmony in mind and body.
Sure, guys think sexual desire, ability and performance are essential, and having none makes you sub standard, a failure. If nature's hormones are telling your body you crave sex, but you can't perform, sure, that is going to be cause for anxiety and frustration.
Reducing testosterone, in my personal experience, to a level where nature no longer makes your mind and body crave sex is a great relief. Nature only does this out of self-protection, to ensure survival of the species. But there are enough people of this planet to ensure that survival. A life without sexual cravings and desire may be missing a few moments of sexual satisfaction, but I have found that a life without sexual cravings and desires is, for me, a life that has many more pleasurable moments of calm, focus and satisfaction.
Until you have experienced an at ease mind and body you will think such a claim to be absurd. From my trials and tribulations I now believe that a year or two on siterone or androcur to at slowly lower your T level, and maintain a very low T level long enough to experience the benefits of low testosterone, is a much better alternative than sudden castration. If one were suddenly castrated because of the desire to be free of testosterone, or for any reason, then I would suggest that they start using TRT immediately and then slowly, over at least a year, maybe longer, reduce the TRT dose. The body does not take lightly to sudden changes. But given the time to adapt, and in maintaining a healthy low level of T, life does not just get better, it is good.