Real reasons to become an eunuch
Posted: Thu Oct 21, 2010 6:41 pm
At times after plenty of time for thinking and gathering data some issues in my mind get explosively clear. It is like if I have completed some long and hard work with a result. It comes suddenly, and within moments all facts that were floating around unconnected, get structured, interconnected in a logical and reasonable manner. It is wonderful how brain works! I call these moments, moments of clarity. (not truth, as the truth is out there, not in my mind 
Allright, this moment of clarity hit me just 10 minutes ago, while writing a reply... It required more than 20 years to reach that clarity or understanding for my self. I feel that there are many similar people around with the same questions, so I think it is reasonable to publish my thoughts.
Well, I've had this weird castration desire since my puberty. And since then I have tried to find an answer to question WHY! What is the reason I want it?
There might be different reasons why I want to be castrated. They all seem to be illogical, abnormal, difficult to explain, controversial, unnatural, unrelated, invented. I think many of us have come to same conclusion after a while. For myself I feel that this invented part is most dominating in me.
If you asked me 10 years ago why I want to become an eunuch you probably got different reply than you got today or 20 years ago. Despite time seems to make my reasoning more clear and acceptable, in reality reasons seem to change over time. Just finding better excuse for getting it done. The only real reason behind the desire seem to be simple: I WANT IT! Just. Without explanation.
I know that with such a reason I might be regretting after getting it done. So I havent got it done so far.
At the same time I might be wrong not getting it done. It could be, that I will be relieved of this desire after becoming an eunuch. Who knows. I know that even chemical trial won't give real answers.
hmhh... There is a huge difference whether you want to get castrated, or become an eunuch. While castration gives you both, first month you feel you were castrated and after that you feel you have become an eunuch.
There is a dilemma, whether to become an eunuch at once or delay decision until you have clear mind. I see that most of the men here delay that decision. And that delay seem to be substantial part of their lives. Like myself It is being delayed until there seem to be nothing to be lost. Is that justified? While I could have been happy eunuch for all these long years. Damn, it is because I don't know what is right for me! Who could help me? Who could help us? Nobody else than myself. I hope so much that Male to Eunuch or genderless conversion will be equally supported as MtF and FtM conversion.
At some stage of lives people become so old and inflexible that they fear changes in their lives and due to social comfort prefer not to make any major changes in their public appeareance.
I have watched people's behaviour for tens of years. It depends mostly of age and sex. Only 5% of social behaviour depends on intelligence. There are certainly male behaviour patterns and female behaviour patterns. It is up to their identity. Who they consider themselves to be depending on their behaviour. I do not belong to any of these two big groups. I consider myself being a human first, not male or female. I came to that understanding not so long ago. Unfortunately. I have confused many females in my life with my strange behavior, it is just because that in general I do not expect any sexual response from them! So unfortunate! I just didn't know who was I.
The only differnce between me and android Mr. Data is that I am human. Oh well, and i really enjoy humor
Allright, this moment of clarity hit me just 10 minutes ago, while writing a reply... It required more than 20 years to reach that clarity or understanding for my self. I feel that there are many similar people around with the same questions, so I think it is reasonable to publish my thoughts.
Well, I've had this weird castration desire since my puberty. And since then I have tried to find an answer to question WHY! What is the reason I want it?
There might be different reasons why I want to be castrated. They all seem to be illogical, abnormal, difficult to explain, controversial, unnatural, unrelated, invented. I think many of us have come to same conclusion after a while. For myself I feel that this invented part is most dominating in me.
If you asked me 10 years ago why I want to become an eunuch you probably got different reply than you got today or 20 years ago. Despite time seems to make my reasoning more clear and acceptable, in reality reasons seem to change over time. Just finding better excuse for getting it done. The only real reason behind the desire seem to be simple: I WANT IT! Just. Without explanation.
I know that with such a reason I might be regretting after getting it done. So I havent got it done so far.
At the same time I might be wrong not getting it done. It could be, that I will be relieved of this desire after becoming an eunuch. Who knows. I know that even chemical trial won't give real answers.
hmhh... There is a huge difference whether you want to get castrated, or become an eunuch. While castration gives you both, first month you feel you were castrated and after that you feel you have become an eunuch.
There is a dilemma, whether to become an eunuch at once or delay decision until you have clear mind. I see that most of the men here delay that decision. And that delay seem to be substantial part of their lives. Like myself It is being delayed until there seem to be nothing to be lost. Is that justified? While I could have been happy eunuch for all these long years. Damn, it is because I don't know what is right for me! Who could help me? Who could help us? Nobody else than myself. I hope so much that Male to Eunuch or genderless conversion will be equally supported as MtF and FtM conversion.
At some stage of lives people become so old and inflexible that they fear changes in their lives and due to social comfort prefer not to make any major changes in their public appeareance.
I have watched people's behaviour for tens of years. It depends mostly of age and sex. Only 5% of social behaviour depends on intelligence. There are certainly male behaviour patterns and female behaviour patterns. It is up to their identity. Who they consider themselves to be depending on their behaviour. I do not belong to any of these two big groups. I consider myself being a human first, not male or female. I came to that understanding not so long ago. Unfortunately. I have confused many females in my life with my strange behavior, it is just because that in general I do not expect any sexual response from them! So unfortunate! I just didn't know who was I.
The only differnce between me and android Mr. Data is that I am human. Oh well, and i really enjoy humor