Hi everyone. I have been around a while just lurking, reading and learning stuff. I have learned a lot. I know my fantasies and thoughts will be understood here.

I still have my balls. Fairly large, heavy, low hangers. I am heavily into c&B torture. The boys have been crushed, hit, bashed, stuck with needles and other sorts of torture. I fantisize heavily of having my scrotum split open and my balls exposed. Also of being hung by my balls which I have accomplished to a small extent.

Do I want to loose them? I dont know. So far I recognise the line between fantasy and reality but here lately that line has been getting smaller and smaller. At heart I guess I am a big chicken. I am a sub also into B&D.

I guess I am looking for comments, thoughts and advice on my fantasies and actions. I like my balls and also like the pain and pleasure they can give me.

Hope I havent bored you. Any and all comments will be well taken.

Thank you for reading.

showodboi you sound quite typical of the persons on this board. I can relate to the fantasy thoughts and interest of having a lot done to your balls. i have found it so intersting that as long as one does not orgasm or ejaculate, the desire to experience all kinds of activiites that "impact' the balls increases with the length of time the activity goes on for. Perhaps this is why the risk on real damage increases as we go on. We need more and more to keep the same level of excitement.

The desire to experience castration or ball damage seems so intense in the beginning and increases as we progress, but the risk is greater that we will not think rationally. Permanent damage or castration for most has to remain a fantasy. Unfortunately, you can only do most of the fantasies once.